PolyMatt54
New member
Hi there
I am a 36 year old from new Zealand.
I sought out Google for advice on my relationship and ended up here!
Even as a kid I had thoughts of all the girls being my girlfriend (hahaha) and as an adult it's taken me 34 years to find a long term relationship. I have really struggled to get here!
My partner and I of 2 years both identify as poly. Me, I would like a relationship where everyone is equal and I want something serious (and closed) with both, and between the two ladies. My partner can't give me children which is a separate issue, but a poly relationship could solve that, though I realise that could cause a lot of negative emotion with my partner. So a proceed with caution thing.
My partner however, wildly varies with what she wants. A girlfriend, a play partner, or neither. As a result I don't know if a poly relationship will happen for me and feel like I need to tRy and get some answers for my own benefit. But don't want to push it for hers.
I feel like jealousy is playing a big part, she's admitted she gets jealous at the thought of me doing anything with another girl. But this also varies.
Ok sorry gone off on a tangent here! Um outside of the relationship I am planning a new event and got a charity being set up, to combat mental illness awareness. I have depression and anxiety and I feel like the world doesn't understand the illnesses and how to react.
I am a massive football (soccer) fan and play regularly. I have just started learning the guitar and want to write my own songs some day.
Thats all for now!
I am a 36 year old from new Zealand.
I sought out Google for advice on my relationship and ended up here!
Even as a kid I had thoughts of all the girls being my girlfriend (hahaha) and as an adult it's taken me 34 years to find a long term relationship. I have really struggled to get here!
My partner and I of 2 years both identify as poly. Me, I would like a relationship where everyone is equal and I want something serious (and closed) with both, and between the two ladies. My partner can't give me children which is a separate issue, but a poly relationship could solve that, though I realise that could cause a lot of negative emotion with my partner. So a proceed with caution thing.
My partner however, wildly varies with what she wants. A girlfriend, a play partner, or neither. As a result I don't know if a poly relationship will happen for me and feel like I need to tRy and get some answers for my own benefit. But don't want to push it for hers.
I feel like jealousy is playing a big part, she's admitted she gets jealous at the thought of me doing anything with another girl. But this also varies.
Ok sorry gone off on a tangent here! Um outside of the relationship I am planning a new event and got a charity being set up, to combat mental illness awareness. I have depression and anxiety and I feel like the world doesn't understand the illnesses and how to react.
I am a massive football (soccer) fan and play regularly. I have just started learning the guitar and want to write my own songs some day.
Thats all for now!