Week of no internet in Italy (winter school of physics). The weather and sea was really really nice, except that there wasn't much time to look around, because there were so many lectures.
Did you know the facebook data center requires power of ~1/3 of a nuclear power plant?
Anyway, I feel like I'm stopping to be polyamory compatable. Idealist has sweet words how he misses me (I trust him in that) and how we should spend more time together; he's been convincing me that there is no point in working between christmas and new year, and how I shold make free time - and then it turnes out he doesn't actually consider going anywhere with just me for more then a day or a half or so, and his suggestion (or Meta's) is to make trips all together.
I'm quite angry after all the words about how we should make up for the time we were appart. Maybe he doesn't see a difference, but I do. If I take time off of work, I wanna get out of the city, and I certainly don't wanna spend that time as three. One or two evenings around the christmas time is plenty, or rather I don't actually mind doing something all together, but I wanna get my time with him alone and play couple. It's just misunderstandings and different idea of quality time, but I am REALLY ANGRY.
But the thing why I think I am no longer polyamory compatible is the "play couple" part. Yes I think I always wanted that, but now... I really wish Meta wasn't in the picture. I'm jealous in the worst sense of that word.
Idealist has made me incredibly happy on many occasions throughout the last two years, showing me worlds of intimacy I had no idea about. But do I really need this?
I know I usually want to dump him anytime we don't see each other for a week, so maybe it's the same effect. But a few more droplets like this... I may go for monogamy and just hope I find a quality connection with someone again.
Did you know the facebook data center requires power of ~1/3 of a nuclear power plant?
Anyway, I feel like I'm stopping to be polyamory compatable. Idealist has sweet words how he misses me (I trust him in that) and how we should spend more time together; he's been convincing me that there is no point in working between christmas and new year, and how I shold make free time - and then it turnes out he doesn't actually consider going anywhere with just me for more then a day or a half or so, and his suggestion (or Meta's) is to make trips all together.
I'm quite angry after all the words about how we should make up for the time we were appart. Maybe he doesn't see a difference, but I do. If I take time off of work, I wanna get out of the city, and I certainly don't wanna spend that time as three. One or two evenings around the christmas time is plenty, or rather I don't actually mind doing something all together, but I wanna get my time with him alone and play couple. It's just misunderstandings and different idea of quality time, but I am REALLY ANGRY.
But the thing why I think I am no longer polyamory compatible is the "play couple" part. Yes I think I always wanted that, but now... I really wish Meta wasn't in the picture. I'm jealous in the worst sense of that word.
Idealist has made me incredibly happy on many occasions throughout the last two years, showing me worlds of intimacy I had no idea about. But do I really need this?
I know I usually want to dump him anytime we don't see each other for a week, so maybe it's the same effect. But a few more droplets like this... I may go for monogamy and just hope I find a quality connection with someone again.