So, me...well, I was raised in a very christian household, although it was split and reformed anew at one point. But I've always been a curious person, always seeking...I don't know, enlightenment, the truth, and whatever else to that effect? Anyway, I've always had an inkling I was bi-sexual but I have never explored that in-depth mainly due to my family pressures, etc... I did marry a great girl, although I began having issues with feeling less important as a partner and more of a pay-check. Long story short, we did have a son together, who I love dearly, and we have also since then, split, more because I knew I needed to figure out how to get my mind to a better place so I could be there for my son. At the same time I found this amazing woman who I have since married and although we are separated by an ocean, we are so connected in every way that it hurts everyday I wake up and every night I lay down without her next to me.
So why am I on here? Well my beliefs began changing after I earned a degree in religion, odd I know. I began questioning the world around me more, asking why, and why not a lot. I've currently landed on a principle that I try to hold onto in my spiritual life and while I wish I could devote more time for study and contemplation, work and family demand so much more. Regardless, I have come to believe in the essence of love, and how it is an infinite gift within us if we accept it for what it is meant. For me this has opened up a very large universe of possibilities, and conundrums.
My current relationship is with a very single relationship minded individual. I cannot give her a child, mainly for lack of the ability to fund and still support my son and a roof over our heads. Joking around she mentioned just going and sleeping with random guys while I'm gone, which I know she would never do, but then I began thinking that while I wouldn't feel comfortable with that, I would have no real problem adding a third partner to our family. I've mentioned it on several occasions, and explained, in-depth, just exactly why I would have no problem with someone in our lives who she loved as she does me, and who I might end up loving depending on the person.
Anyway, I don't think I'm really here for advice on how to get my wife to accept me setting her up with dates to find a second husband. I'm here more for support to just be able to vent, chat, talk, listen, or whatever just in a community who might understand my issues.
Other than that, I'm just a normal guy, doing some fun things in life, and some boring things in life...but aren't we all, lol.
So why am I on here? Well my beliefs began changing after I earned a degree in religion, odd I know. I began questioning the world around me more, asking why, and why not a lot. I've currently landed on a principle that I try to hold onto in my spiritual life and while I wish I could devote more time for study and contemplation, work and family demand so much more. Regardless, I have come to believe in the essence of love, and how it is an infinite gift within us if we accept it for what it is meant. For me this has opened up a very large universe of possibilities, and conundrums.
My current relationship is with a very single relationship minded individual. I cannot give her a child, mainly for lack of the ability to fund and still support my son and a roof over our heads. Joking around she mentioned just going and sleeping with random guys while I'm gone, which I know she would never do, but then I began thinking that while I wouldn't feel comfortable with that, I would have no real problem adding a third partner to our family. I've mentioned it on several occasions, and explained, in-depth, just exactly why I would have no problem with someone in our lives who she loved as she does me, and who I might end up loving depending on the person.
Anyway, I don't think I'm really here for advice on how to get my wife to accept me setting her up with dates to find a second husband. I'm here more for support to just be able to vent, chat, talk, listen, or whatever just in a community who might understand my issues.
Other than that, I'm just a normal guy, doing some fun things in life, and some boring things in life...but aren't we all, lol.