Jacquielou
New member
Is poly right for me? I don’t know. In March of 2017 I chose to be a celibate for two years. I had been in an ugly, supposedly monogamous relationship for 14 years, and when I finally left I jumped straight away into another relationship filled with red flags. When I ended that after about 5 months I decided enough was enough. I started going to counseling and imposed on myself a 2 year recovery period, no sex, no dating. I hadn’t been single since I was 19. I didn’t know how to be alone, I didn’t know how to be just me without trying to be everything for someone else. I feel like it was a good decision and smart decision given my past and my upbringing, but now the 2 years are almost up and I’m looking forwards. I have no interest in getting married or living with someone. I have 3 children and I don’t want a series of “uncles” or anything of the sort for them. Or for myself. But, I want intimacy, romance, friendship and I know there is room in my heart for more than just one man. I need to be slow and careful and thoughtful, so here I am investigating whether this is potentially right for me. JFC that was quite a ramble.