thedevotedcouple
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We are a married couple of 12 years and about 2 years ago we began to play around with the idea of a casual threesome. Fast forward to present day, we have had our experience and began reading more and more about polyamory. Our special friend, "Charlie", was an amazing lover and a very nice man, one whom my husband and I began envisioning many different relationship possibilities. I feel foolish for two reasons: 1: because we knew in the beginning that this was a casual hookup and made it clear to him that he was free to explore and find other people and 2: it has only been 1 month and we've already had such a strong attachment to him. We never let him know any of these fantasies because we felt it was unfair to spring that on him. He was very conscientious and honest with us about his new love affair and has expressed sadness that our encounters have to stop. What surprised me the most is how fucking heartbroken we BOTH are about losing him.
We three agreed to meet one last time and had a wonderful evening on Friday. However we've spent the better part of yesterday grieving and I fear that one day just isn't enough to help process through the emotions. I also feel that it's too late to be honest with him about our hopes of a more serious relationship with him because now his focus is on this other person. Personally, I'm feeling quite bereft and am struggling to do everyday, normal tasks, and I fear that, although it is very intriguing and feels "right", polyamory may not be for me.
We three agreed to meet one last time and had a wonderful evening on Friday. However we've spent the better part of yesterday grieving and I fear that one day just isn't enough to help process through the emotions. I also feel that it's too late to be honest with him about our hopes of a more serious relationship with him because now his focus is on this other person. Personally, I'm feeling quite bereft and am struggling to do everyday, normal tasks, and I fear that, although it is very intriguing and feels "right", polyamory may not be for me.