SelinaKelly
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Greetings
I'm not positive what I'm looking for here. There are so many poly folks its rather impressive! I wish there was a mobile option for this blog.. I like the privacy of my smart phone. Speaking of which, ill apologize for spelling errors before this post gets longer.
I spent a fair amount of time hunting the internet for a pub/bar downtown that tends to have poly patrons but didn't have much luck. I dont really party, but it would of been nice to find somewhere.
Theres a group that meets once a month that id love to try and attend at some point.. I wish it was a bit easier for me to do that cause I work that day and dont consistanly live in the city.
I probably should say something about myself! Do check out my summary if youd enjoy learning the basics of my "here and now".
Today I feel lonely. I wish I trusted people easier. I wish that I could meet more people and have the free time to get to know someone I live near.
I dont spend a lot of time on the internet. I find interactions to be fleeting and impersonal, I get sick of typing shit and struggle with actually finding people within a reasonable distance that I actually hit it off with.
The person Im in love with lives a couple of hours away. I wish I drove a car all the time but then almost instantly take back the wish when I think of how much I actually dont want a car. My mother and her are about the only things that would even come close to convincing me to get one. Well maybe if I had a baby but I sure dont have one!
I hope its ok that Im rambling : ) Im sure Im supposed to want advice or give advice to others but I dont think Im terribly good at that lol. I certainly welcome comments though, I absolutely love hearing what people think. I love anylising and therorising. I like answering questions.
I wonder what the future holds for me. Looking back at my life, I find it amusing that I honestly havent changed much. I do grow though.. its hard to explain what I mean, but you know how a puppy starts off one color and through the years its coat grows different pattern of color or that paticular pattern on the fur that looks like a heart for example maybe turns into a diamond instead - Thats me.
I have noticed some changes though. Im less patient, my need for friendships that consist of unconditional love is becoming a very prominant characteristic. Ive learned that I dont want to live with anyone, probably ever.
I hope that I keep up with this blog, even if no one reads it. I want it to mean something. Im excited to learn about the polyamorous lifestyle, my lifestyle. I wanna see where in my life polyamory fits. Ive never felt like I needed to be poly persay, hell, my longest relationship was monogamous and I felt that I had met my true love, like actually, and never needed anything else. I could see myself feeling that way again with the right person honestly.
A poly lifestyle just sounds a lot more realistic to me. The people I choose to share my thoughts, feelings and sucesses with I want to have in my life for the rest of my life, and dont think I should have to settle for less. I know that type of thinking doesnt typically get you a lot of friends but Im a pretty comfortable loner : )~
I'm not positive what I'm looking for here. There are so many poly folks its rather impressive! I wish there was a mobile option for this blog.. I like the privacy of my smart phone. Speaking of which, ill apologize for spelling errors before this post gets longer.
I spent a fair amount of time hunting the internet for a pub/bar downtown that tends to have poly patrons but didn't have much luck. I dont really party, but it would of been nice to find somewhere.
Theres a group that meets once a month that id love to try and attend at some point.. I wish it was a bit easier for me to do that cause I work that day and dont consistanly live in the city.
I probably should say something about myself! Do check out my summary if youd enjoy learning the basics of my "here and now".
Today I feel lonely. I wish I trusted people easier. I wish that I could meet more people and have the free time to get to know someone I live near.
I dont spend a lot of time on the internet. I find interactions to be fleeting and impersonal, I get sick of typing shit and struggle with actually finding people within a reasonable distance that I actually hit it off with.
The person Im in love with lives a couple of hours away. I wish I drove a car all the time but then almost instantly take back the wish when I think of how much I actually dont want a car. My mother and her are about the only things that would even come close to convincing me to get one. Well maybe if I had a baby but I sure dont have one!
I hope its ok that Im rambling : ) Im sure Im supposed to want advice or give advice to others but I dont think Im terribly good at that lol. I certainly welcome comments though, I absolutely love hearing what people think. I love anylising and therorising. I like answering questions.
I wonder what the future holds for me. Looking back at my life, I find it amusing that I honestly havent changed much. I do grow though.. its hard to explain what I mean, but you know how a puppy starts off one color and through the years its coat grows different pattern of color or that paticular pattern on the fur that looks like a heart for example maybe turns into a diamond instead - Thats me.
I have noticed some changes though. Im less patient, my need for friendships that consist of unconditional love is becoming a very prominant characteristic. Ive learned that I dont want to live with anyone, probably ever.
I hope that I keep up with this blog, even if no one reads it. I want it to mean something. Im excited to learn about the polyamorous lifestyle, my lifestyle. I wanna see where in my life polyamory fits. Ive never felt like I needed to be poly persay, hell, my longest relationship was monogamous and I felt that I had met my true love, like actually, and never needed anything else. I could see myself feeling that way again with the right person honestly.
A poly lifestyle just sounds a lot more realistic to me. The people I choose to share my thoughts, feelings and sucesses with I want to have in my life for the rest of my life, and dont think I should have to settle for less. I know that type of thinking doesnt typically get you a lot of friends but Im a pretty comfortable loner : )~