Stewy
New member
My Full confession ....
To add to and clarify to my posting yesterday, I am the responsible party for events leading up this failure in my relationship with Midnightsun.
I had every opprotunity to not apply pressure to fill my needs and repsect her wishes. I disrespected her above any and all meanings of the word. The worst of which was putting her in a position where I made her feel expected to have sex with someone she had only met 30 min prior to it happening.
This is inexcusable. I put my physical desires in front of my wifes and destroyed something sacred between us. Midnightsun was correct in her first posting , the weight of these crimes against her and our marriage lye squarely on my shoulders.
To those of you that I rebelled against let me say you were correct in your positions and and feelings of repulisveness twards me and my actions. To add salt to this I in turn acted like a damn fool and came back at you like a cornered rat instead of a truly sorry individual with any sense of guilt.
To Redpepper I would like to say I am terribly sorry, my angry post was directed at you. I was hurt and felt the very same things as you expressed in your posts twards myself. Lashing out as a means of coping with my feelings instead of accepting your words as wisdom. Even though I do not know you, I admire you for being in the position you are in, for being able to hold you head high , for seeing my faults and being kind enough to speak out about them when you see them for what they are. This Board has and will teach me more as the days go by and it will be because of people like yourself and others like you.
To LovingRadiance, dear I am sorry for any and all embarassment I may have caused you as well, I am truly going to give this my all to become the man I should have been all along. My issues with the anger, outlook on life in general and my journey to find myself will have been influenced by you and for that I am greatfull.
Last but not least to My Wife Midnightsun, you have endured too much hurt in your life My love. I have witnessed this and been there with you as well as been the cause of a great part of it too. I am well beyond words now, I have been all words and no actions for entirely to long. I plan on changing that, all great things take time, and I am now willing to devote whatever it will take to finding myself and becoming your friend again. I love you baby.
stewy
To add to and clarify to my posting yesterday, I am the responsible party for events leading up this failure in my relationship with Midnightsun.
I had every opprotunity to not apply pressure to fill my needs and repsect her wishes. I disrespected her above any and all meanings of the word. The worst of which was putting her in a position where I made her feel expected to have sex with someone she had only met 30 min prior to it happening.
This is inexcusable. I put my physical desires in front of my wifes and destroyed something sacred between us. Midnightsun was correct in her first posting , the weight of these crimes against her and our marriage lye squarely on my shoulders.
To those of you that I rebelled against let me say you were correct in your positions and and feelings of repulisveness twards me and my actions. To add salt to this I in turn acted like a damn fool and came back at you like a cornered rat instead of a truly sorry individual with any sense of guilt.
To Redpepper I would like to say I am terribly sorry, my angry post was directed at you. I was hurt and felt the very same things as you expressed in your posts twards myself. Lashing out as a means of coping with my feelings instead of accepting your words as wisdom. Even though I do not know you, I admire you for being in the position you are in, for being able to hold you head high , for seeing my faults and being kind enough to speak out about them when you see them for what they are. This Board has and will teach me more as the days go by and it will be because of people like yourself and others like you.
To LovingRadiance, dear I am sorry for any and all embarassment I may have caused you as well, I am truly going to give this my all to become the man I should have been all along. My issues with the anger, outlook on life in general and my journey to find myself will have been influenced by you and for that I am greatfull.
Last but not least to My Wife Midnightsun, you have endured too much hurt in your life My love. I have witnessed this and been there with you as well as been the cause of a great part of it too. I am well beyond words now, I have been all words and no actions for entirely to long. I plan on changing that, all great things take time, and I am now willing to devote whatever it will take to finding myself and becoming your friend again. I love you baby.
stewy