Hey, people!
I wanted to open this topic up here, excuse me if it already exists (would be happy to get the link of a thread about it).
I am recently recovering from a narcissistic relationship and sexual abuse. It is a very complicated journey for me and it is hard to articulate the problem. I have huge trust issues and a great fear of intimacy, even physical with other people. At the same time, I do have a libido.
I think I would not like another relationship, yet again I cannot trust strangers or have casual sex anymore. Or complete a partner's fantasies with other people etc. Maybe you understand where I am going.
I do not think I can deal with too many people, yet I am not jealous if a partner does, yet I am distrustful of anyone involved too close in my life.
You know how some of the characteristics given of a narc are always related to kinky lustful sex, non-monogamy etc. I understand and am ok with non-monogamy, I guess even with some kinky stuff but how do you survive with so many fucking social predators, using these things against others and using sex as a form of control & having sex with multiple people as a form of self-validation...
Am I asking the poly question of all time ?
I wanted to open this topic up here, excuse me if it already exists (would be happy to get the link of a thread about it).
I am recently recovering from a narcissistic relationship and sexual abuse. It is a very complicated journey for me and it is hard to articulate the problem. I have huge trust issues and a great fear of intimacy, even physical with other people. At the same time, I do have a libido.
I think I would not like another relationship, yet again I cannot trust strangers or have casual sex anymore. Or complete a partner's fantasies with other people etc. Maybe you understand where I am going.
I do not think I can deal with too many people, yet I am not jealous if a partner does, yet I am distrustful of anyone involved too close in my life.
You know how some of the characteristics given of a narc are always related to kinky lustful sex, non-monogamy etc. I understand and am ok with non-monogamy, I guess even with some kinky stuff but how do you survive with so many fucking social predators, using these things against others and using sex as a form of control & having sex with multiple people as a form of self-validation...
Am I asking the poly question of all time ?