WanderingINTJ
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It has been a while since I have posted here. I am experiencing a wave of emotions right now. I have been divorced for 9 months now. Not a very long time. I will admit that one of the big reasons for that divorce is that I felt that I grew and discovered more about myself as being a polyamorous person. My now ex husband was not interested. After about 18 plus months of me introducing poly to my ex, I decided maybe it was best to go ahead and part ways. Now 9 months later, I am feeling regret and loneliness. I'm definitely feeling selfish and self centered as I listen to how my daughter wishes her Dad and I were together. I don't know how to reconcile with myself that it seens like I made a rash and selfish move. I did think about my daughter and and felt us parting ways whike she was younger would have less of an impact on her. She's 7. It also hurts that it seems that she really enjoys the time she spends with my exes new girlfriend. I'm really happy that she's getting attention she needs, but I'm feeling a bit inadequate. She gets double attention with her Dad and with me, well, there's only so much I can give. Any feedback would be great as I work through this.