LostPixie
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Is there a word for "hopeful for your happiness to increase, but also feeling left behind."
Jealous doesn't fit. Envy doesn't fit.
it's not compersion per say. More like compersion for their hopefulness, mixed with longing for something that almost might have been.
bitersweet. but big.
(this is currently also entangled with lots of other feels about other things, but I want to be able to explain that it's not "jealousy" that I'm feeling...)
Background: there's a couple guys I've had an open flirtationship with for a month or so, no expectations beyond supportive friendship and honesty, but with strong attraction and affection. They both are recently persuing relationships that would reduce their amount/ extent of affectioning with me to pretty much just supportive friends. At least for awhile.
I'm glad they are finding more consistent happiness, but also going to miss the closeness. Then again, I went into this figuring sooner or later they would drift away from me, since none of us were really looking for solid relationships, and (sometimes at my own fault) eventually everyone does. Just kinda hoped it wouldn't be so soon I guess.
Jealous doesn't fit. Envy doesn't fit.
it's not compersion per say. More like compersion for their hopefulness, mixed with longing for something that almost might have been.
bitersweet. but big.
(this is currently also entangled with lots of other feels about other things, but I want to be able to explain that it's not "jealousy" that I'm feeling...)
Background: there's a couple guys I've had an open flirtationship with for a month or so, no expectations beyond supportive friendship and honesty, but with strong attraction and affection. They both are recently persuing relationships that would reduce their amount/ extent of affectioning with me to pretty much just supportive friends. At least for awhile.
I'm glad they are finding more consistent happiness, but also going to miss the closeness. Then again, I went into this figuring sooner or later they would drift away from me, since none of us were really looking for solid relationships, and (sometimes at my own fault) eventually everyone does. Just kinda hoped it wouldn't be so soon I guess.