starlight1
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Well I am almost over this cold hurrah!
I know a nasty virus has been going around attacking peoples lungs and turning into pneumonia for a LOT of people. Its happened with my (5 people) bio family in highschool city, its happened to coworkers here, its happened to people on forums all over. So I think theres enough collective people to say this last month or two has been bad for respitory illnesses/viruses! Even Rocky has come down with this illness, and my kids were chest coughing when I saw them last weekend.
Yesterday at work marked the day I was officially accepted into the fold.
I also ran into an aquaintance, Georgina, from the kids school, this has been a good platform to explain briefly about my kids no longer living with me, in a nuetral setting and also, when I am feeling quite strong and self-sufficient.
She offered to do a play date sometime, and said she'd bring the kids to the pub as well. That was quite a sweet gesture of her!
Last night Rocky picked me up from work, we chilled out watching the last of the four part finally of Avatar: the last airbender. Just laughing out heads off on part one. He can't sit still long this one, so we didnt watch a lot. I then played some child of light while he dozed next to me, and then we had a late night snack of left over stirfry I had made earlier in the day. We both have crazy allergies to tones of stuff so I am always trrying to find creative ways to cook food that is both palatable and also not going to make us ill.
I am succesfully down to 152. Going to be in the 140's soon, and working on for the first time in my adult life having less belly fat percentage. I am watching my macros, bringing the sugar down and putting the protein and other nutrients up. Right now my calories look like this most days:
1000 kcal on deficit days
500-800 on a 24 hour fast day (Sunday to monday)
and 1500-1800 on an eat up day or maintenance day
My Carbs: 100 grams
Protein: 75 grams
Fat: 33 grams
Sodium: 2,300
Iron: 100
Sugar: 25grams
The sugar I am getting pretty good at honouring as I have replaced my worst achilles heal, reeces peanutbutter cup, with a protein powder called PB2 with chocolate. Tastes amazingly close to reeces, but I put it in my coffee and tea in the morning, or on its own with water (or almond milk), and its sooo good!! Its also only 45 kcal for 2 tbs in my drink, instead of 540 for two Reeces. Plus without the extra sugar I am not converting sugar straight to fat in my liver.
I also use stevia as well (Truvia version) which is derived from the stevia plant and the least processed of the proccessed sugars (Besides brown or honey etc.)
I decided this year my goal is to put premium fuel in my body. I have an online forum for women in fitness, and also a whatsapp group and they are all super supportive. But its time for me to be really accountable now about every bite that goes in my mouth. I have done the emotional untangling of eating (therapy), and now I am ready to dig in deeper and go farther than I have ever before.
I got a message from Mooseman last night having some bad news. I dont want to end on a bad note, but my brain isn't far from him. I shared a small bit about him, who he was, a picture, and that I really liked him with Rocky last night. I asked him how he felt about it, and he was really happy for me. Cracks me up every time when he gets relieved that I have someone else. He knows our libidos are so disparate. I tried to sexy him up this morning but it wasn't happening. Le sigh.
I really dont want to find any further people, its too much time and energy right now, but it would be SO SO SO nice to have sex more regularly than once or twice a month. I accept Rocky as he is completely, and I don't at all want him to feel pressured to do something he doesn't want to do. But my god, I am so horny right now over Mooseman mentally pretty much every day. Not his fault or anyhting, I think I just have a generally high libido, but yeah thinking of him, talking to him on whatsapp/skype...kinda drives me wild.
I also shared this blog with Mooseman. Thats a new one for me, to do so quickly, and only a handfull of people read here. All the people I have ever written in depth about know it as I asked permission, but... I have been quite protective of this place.
We are skyping on Saturday (I think, we didn't confirm but I hope we can!) and I am really looking foreward to it. I am incredibly mentally attracted to him, and he is soooo handsome. He has the whole tall dark and handsome thing going on, but he is so sweet too. He's a very nice blend of assertive male, with gentle heart. And I so want to fuck his brains out, for days. We have this wonderful chemistry of mutual crazy humour. Yesterday morning he cheered me up from a particularly shitty day at work, and we were rhyming poetry back and forth making it up as we go along. It made me super happy and I felt I could take on the day more confidently, and I enjoy the lightheartedness he brings to my life. It's a very positive feeling around him.
I struggled a lot with Trip, even though he was kind, with his negative spirals. The depression and negativity, and such seriousness, it just wasn't healthy for me long term, even without the cheating part. So it's refreshing to be around someone so positive and uplifting. Speaking of Trip I dreamed I converted him to mormonism and shipped him off to a foriegn country so I didn't have to see him again. LOL. I am so weird. My subconcious is so weird. Clearly I am starting to heal anyway!
No news on the potential renter part, when I know more I will share but I feel all is right in the world today.
Hugs and love to you all, you fabulous people you!
I know a nasty virus has been going around attacking peoples lungs and turning into pneumonia for a LOT of people. Its happened with my (5 people) bio family in highschool city, its happened to coworkers here, its happened to people on forums all over. So I think theres enough collective people to say this last month or two has been bad for respitory illnesses/viruses! Even Rocky has come down with this illness, and my kids were chest coughing when I saw them last weekend.
Yesterday at work marked the day I was officially accepted into the fold.
I also ran into an aquaintance, Georgina, from the kids school, this has been a good platform to explain briefly about my kids no longer living with me, in a nuetral setting and also, when I am feeling quite strong and self-sufficient.
She offered to do a play date sometime, and said she'd bring the kids to the pub as well. That was quite a sweet gesture of her!
Last night Rocky picked me up from work, we chilled out watching the last of the four part finally of Avatar: the last airbender. Just laughing out heads off on part one. He can't sit still long this one, so we didnt watch a lot. I then played some child of light while he dozed next to me, and then we had a late night snack of left over stirfry I had made earlier in the day. We both have crazy allergies to tones of stuff so I am always trrying to find creative ways to cook food that is both palatable and also not going to make us ill.
I am succesfully down to 152. Going to be in the 140's soon, and working on for the first time in my adult life having less belly fat percentage. I am watching my macros, bringing the sugar down and putting the protein and other nutrients up. Right now my calories look like this most days:
1000 kcal on deficit days
500-800 on a 24 hour fast day (Sunday to monday)
and 1500-1800 on an eat up day or maintenance day
My Carbs: 100 grams
Protein: 75 grams
Fat: 33 grams
Sodium: 2,300
Iron: 100
Sugar: 25grams
The sugar I am getting pretty good at honouring as I have replaced my worst achilles heal, reeces peanutbutter cup, with a protein powder called PB2 with chocolate. Tastes amazingly close to reeces, but I put it in my coffee and tea in the morning, or on its own with water (or almond milk), and its sooo good!! Its also only 45 kcal for 2 tbs in my drink, instead of 540 for two Reeces. Plus without the extra sugar I am not converting sugar straight to fat in my liver.
I also use stevia as well (Truvia version) which is derived from the stevia plant and the least processed of the proccessed sugars (Besides brown or honey etc.)
I decided this year my goal is to put premium fuel in my body. I have an online forum for women in fitness, and also a whatsapp group and they are all super supportive. But its time for me to be really accountable now about every bite that goes in my mouth. I have done the emotional untangling of eating (therapy), and now I am ready to dig in deeper and go farther than I have ever before.
I got a message from Mooseman last night having some bad news. I dont want to end on a bad note, but my brain isn't far from him. I shared a small bit about him, who he was, a picture, and that I really liked him with Rocky last night. I asked him how he felt about it, and he was really happy for me. Cracks me up every time when he gets relieved that I have someone else. He knows our libidos are so disparate. I tried to sexy him up this morning but it wasn't happening. Le sigh.
I really dont want to find any further people, its too much time and energy right now, but it would be SO SO SO nice to have sex more regularly than once or twice a month. I accept Rocky as he is completely, and I don't at all want him to feel pressured to do something he doesn't want to do. But my god, I am so horny right now over Mooseman mentally pretty much every day. Not his fault or anyhting, I think I just have a generally high libido, but yeah thinking of him, talking to him on whatsapp/skype...kinda drives me wild.
I also shared this blog with Mooseman. Thats a new one for me, to do so quickly, and only a handfull of people read here. All the people I have ever written in depth about know it as I asked permission, but... I have been quite protective of this place.
We are skyping on Saturday (I think, we didn't confirm but I hope we can!) and I am really looking foreward to it. I am incredibly mentally attracted to him, and he is soooo handsome. He has the whole tall dark and handsome thing going on, but he is so sweet too. He's a very nice blend of assertive male, with gentle heart. And I so want to fuck his brains out, for days. We have this wonderful chemistry of mutual crazy humour. Yesterday morning he cheered me up from a particularly shitty day at work, and we were rhyming poetry back and forth making it up as we go along. It made me super happy and I felt I could take on the day more confidently, and I enjoy the lightheartedness he brings to my life. It's a very positive feeling around him.
I struggled a lot with Trip, even though he was kind, with his negative spirals. The depression and negativity, and such seriousness, it just wasn't healthy for me long term, even without the cheating part. So it's refreshing to be around someone so positive and uplifting. Speaking of Trip I dreamed I converted him to mormonism and shipped him off to a foriegn country so I didn't have to see him again. LOL. I am so weird. My subconcious is so weird. Clearly I am starting to heal anyway!
No news on the potential renter part, when I know more I will share but I feel all is right in the world today.
Hugs and love to you all, you fabulous people you!