New2This3
New member
Hello all! I am New2This3....I've fairly new to this community/site and have written about most of what's going on in my life right now in a different thread (you can find that here for some background: http://www.polyamory.com/forum/showthread.php?t=75721)
..I figured I'd start a blog in this section to kind of continue my life's journey into the poly world and perhaps get some feedback along the way....
So the last I left off on the thread I posted before, I was trying to find ways to get past my feelings of insecurities/jealousy....I took the advice/insight I received on here to heart...mulled it around, and realized that some self reflection and self-focus couldn't hurt and is probably MUCH needed regardless.... It also serves greatly as a distraction from constantly over analyzing everything and anything that has to do with me and S (my husband for those who don't know) and with S and K (his "girlfriend") ((I put the quotations because they love each other but she's married in a monogamous relationship, soon to be separated with the intentions of getting divorced and wants to be free before pursuing any relationships further.....again for those who don't know))
Anywho....I've also decided to just sacrifice my feelings for awhile on the "ultimatum" S gave me.... I started to feel that things were getting nowhere with trying to talk more about it and trying to make him understand how I felt about it.... So instead I decided to just submit and go along with it....after all it's not like I'm doing things I don't want to do or don't agree with...it's just that I wanted more out of it and wanted my feelings to be considered.... But anyways, I've actually been happy with how things have been since deciding to just "roll" with it.... The stress of over analyzing is gone....S has been living up to his word on trying to reconnect with me and work on finding "us" again.....the abstinence sucks like hell (we are both very sexual people but one of his concerns was that that was the only level we connected on so he wants to try and reconnect on other different levels) but it's been nice trying to spark the romance again....
I've found that either I keep my feelings/thoughts/emotions completely contained within or I talk TOO much about how I feel and how others feel, asking and prodding (spelling?) to try and understand them..... It's a little smothering sometimes and I'm trying to work on that.
But yeah, it's been a week and two days since S made his "ultimatum" and I feel like overall it's been a good week and two days . I feel like K and I are doing well within our friendship....we even hung out all three of us together a few times and had fun and also just me and her and our kids, which can get crazy but still I love it
I'll write about a few other thoughts in separate posts below.
..I figured I'd start a blog in this section to kind of continue my life's journey into the poly world and perhaps get some feedback along the way....
So the last I left off on the thread I posted before, I was trying to find ways to get past my feelings of insecurities/jealousy....I took the advice/insight I received on here to heart...mulled it around, and realized that some self reflection and self-focus couldn't hurt and is probably MUCH needed regardless.... It also serves greatly as a distraction from constantly over analyzing everything and anything that has to do with me and S (my husband for those who don't know) and with S and K (his "girlfriend") ((I put the quotations because they love each other but she's married in a monogamous relationship, soon to be separated with the intentions of getting divorced and wants to be free before pursuing any relationships further.....again for those who don't know))
Anywho....I've also decided to just sacrifice my feelings for awhile on the "ultimatum" S gave me.... I started to feel that things were getting nowhere with trying to talk more about it and trying to make him understand how I felt about it.... So instead I decided to just submit and go along with it....after all it's not like I'm doing things I don't want to do or don't agree with...it's just that I wanted more out of it and wanted my feelings to be considered.... But anyways, I've actually been happy with how things have been since deciding to just "roll" with it.... The stress of over analyzing is gone....S has been living up to his word on trying to reconnect with me and work on finding "us" again.....the abstinence sucks like hell (we are both very sexual people but one of his concerns was that that was the only level we connected on so he wants to try and reconnect on other different levels) but it's been nice trying to spark the romance again....
I've found that either I keep my feelings/thoughts/emotions completely contained within or I talk TOO much about how I feel and how others feel, asking and prodding (spelling?) to try and understand them..... It's a little smothering sometimes and I'm trying to work on that.
But yeah, it's been a week and two days since S made his "ultimatum" and I feel like overall it's been a good week and two days . I feel like K and I are doing well within our friendship....we even hung out all three of us together a few times and had fun and also just me and her and our kids, which can get crazy but still I love it
I'll write about a few other thoughts in separate posts below.
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