So just curious if anyone has any insight. I met the love of my life. He is absolutely everything I've ever wanted, a lot of things I never even thought to want. I met him when I was married and he was married. I thought my marriage was strong but my new relationship quickly showed me just how abusive my husband was. I ended up leaving my husband and moving in with H (my fiancé) and his wife (N). Their marriage was rocky and had been for the entire 12 years they'd been together. Being poly was a huge part of what helped them to get on the right track and save their marriage. Fast forward and I'm pregnant, H and N have a COMPLETELY different relationship dynamic than they did when a poly lifestyle sounded like a great idea, we all live together (which was never part of the plan), and H isn't comfortable with me or N seeing anyone else (not that N has any desire to). All the things that seemed like no big deal when we were first seeing each other have literally been tearing me apart for six months. I don't know why I can't grasp any of these concepts anymore. I try. I beat my head against the damn wall. I'm head over heels for H. I don't know how to leave him. But this is killing me. H hears me talking in my sleep and it's killing him how much this is torturing me. But how do you walk away from everything you've ever wanted? I've never met anyone like him. So the question is.... Do you guys have any insight? Do you think this is something I can get past? Am I just prolonging the inevitable staying?