Aquamarine
New member
Hello everybody,
I wanted to start this blog to reflect my efforts to find my ’true’ self. Lately, a process of getting to the bottom of my issues has been going on, and I wanted to share this journey on this forum. It was kick-started by the rapid development of the relationship between my wife and her new girlfriend. Surely, my journey had been primed by events, sickness, relationships, and mental/intellectual/emotional development during past years, but the effects of the process definitely peaked during the past 3 months. More is probably coming, still.
So basically, I will pour my heart out about some very private matters I happen to be dealing with at any given moment. I hope the possibility to reflect this process in public gives me some clarity what on earth I am doing, and where to go next. If you have comments, questions, advice, please feel free to share them with me.
I want to introduce myself and my poly-family. This first step seems already troubling. I don’t know how to identify myself. I don’t know who I should include in my family. At this moment, it goes like this:
Me (Aquamarine): 38 years old person questioning her (?) gender, probably bi or pan or something, kinky, poly, introvert, weird
Kay: 47 years old woman, lesbian, kinky, poly, my wife for 3.5 years, been together 5.5 years
I keep wondering if Kay’s family is my family, too. Just recently, one of her teenage kids, hence to be called TeenKid here, decided to finally move in with us after talking about it for couple of years. I guess that makes me a social parent now, but the thing is so new I’m still in a state of denial basically. In addition, Kay has a new girlfriend, but I don’t consider her as part of my family. Nevertheless, the new girlfriend is an important person also in my life, as she is important for my wife. I will call her Cat for now.
I will post a couple of other posts about my background and the current issues.
I wanted to start this blog to reflect my efforts to find my ’true’ self. Lately, a process of getting to the bottom of my issues has been going on, and I wanted to share this journey on this forum. It was kick-started by the rapid development of the relationship between my wife and her new girlfriend. Surely, my journey had been primed by events, sickness, relationships, and mental/intellectual/emotional development during past years, but the effects of the process definitely peaked during the past 3 months. More is probably coming, still.
So basically, I will pour my heart out about some very private matters I happen to be dealing with at any given moment. I hope the possibility to reflect this process in public gives me some clarity what on earth I am doing, and where to go next. If you have comments, questions, advice, please feel free to share them with me.
I want to introduce myself and my poly-family. This first step seems already troubling. I don’t know how to identify myself. I don’t know who I should include in my family. At this moment, it goes like this:
Me (Aquamarine): 38 years old person questioning her (?) gender, probably bi or pan or something, kinky, poly, introvert, weird
Kay: 47 years old woman, lesbian, kinky, poly, my wife for 3.5 years, been together 5.5 years
I keep wondering if Kay’s family is my family, too. Just recently, one of her teenage kids, hence to be called TeenKid here, decided to finally move in with us after talking about it for couple of years. I guess that makes me a social parent now, but the thing is so new I’m still in a state of denial basically. In addition, Kay has a new girlfriend, but I don’t consider her as part of my family. Nevertheless, the new girlfriend is an important person also in my life, as she is important for my wife. I will call her Cat for now.
I will post a couple of other posts about my background and the current issues.