Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

Yeah, I still haven't made all of the appointments. Or, even a single appointment. But after an hour today, I do have up to date referrals, at least. My to do list today is busy, as per usual. I did manage to schedule the work needed on WarMan's car, and I paid some bills of my own this morning.

PunkRockAwesomesauce and I have decided to go to visit the West Virginia State Penitentiary for our anniversary. We're going to take a tour, and I already paid for their Escape the Execution activity, which looks like it will be a fun escape room event. PunkRock has yet to do an escape room, so it will be a new experience for him! We don't know where we will be staying overnight, or what we're doing on Sunday, but at least we have Saturday planned! It's supposed to be a rainy weekend, so that has stopped a lot of our ideas from coming to fruition. We might swing up to Pittsburgh, PA after the prison stuff, but all of the museums we are interested in are crazy expensive! I guess I am spoiled by all of the free DC attractions! $20 a person for the Andy Warhol museum is nutters! I was trying to keep this excursion to under $300, but so far that doesn't look like it will happen.

I am absolutely going to go chop all my hair off today. It's making me insane - I can't stand it longer, and the bangs are out of control. I am hoping to schedule that in for this afternoon - I have a student coming over for extra chemistry class assistance in a few minutes. I also have to go to the bank and mess around with transfers and payments regarding my son's account. Sigh.
 
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New selfie! Sorry it's all glare in my glasses, but I took this a couple of minutes ago, on the road to West Virginia this morning. You can't tell, but my hair is buzzed in the back - all shaved! WarMan isn't excited about short hair, but I seriously couldn't stand how long it had gotten over the last few months. Bonus though - PunkRock LOVES short hair. I do what I like for me though. Lol
 
Holy crap dealing with doctors offices sucks! Frankly, I find it amazing that a profession that takes so many years of detailed training, education, etc. is often so poorly run. I too often get doctors who won't return phone calls, screw up appointments, and have crazy late fee and cancellation policies even though they'll make me wait well past my appointment time, etc. Grrr!

FTR...many doctors have NO control over how their offices are run = PM me if you want a rant on how insurance companies and the government are ruining the doctor/patient relationship!
 
I posted a photo of PunkRock and I together but I can't get it to link here from my phone, and it's annoying me. Oh well.

We've had a blast so far on our trip. The drive was rainy, but we had good conversation and things are wonderful. We have such a positive connection, and both hold so much hope for our future - I'm so squee, people! :) :) :) :)

We visited the West Virginia State Penitentiary and the tour was ok. The peeling paint and rusting bars were beautiful. I took a lot of pictures. The Escape Room they had was amazing. The puzzles were solid and the special effects were believable - we lost and the guy in the electric chair got zapped. We were so super close at the end, so even though we didn't win, it was a solid showing. We were with 6 strangers, but we did well as a team.

I am really tired right now - we both had a steak for dinner, and then hit the hot tub and pool at our hotel. We splashed and snuggled and it's been just grand. I am excited to go to LaVale tomorrow to check out the game store there and see some more neighborhoods and houses in Cumberland. We are still not planning to purchase anything til next Spring at the earliest, but we figured since we are driving right through there on our way back home, why not?
 
The game store was a letdown and so were all the houses we saw, save 2 - one in LaVale and 1 in Cumberland. Overall on this trip, neither PunkRock nor I were enthusiastic about Cumberland. The good part of town seemed really safe and the houses were nice, but the roads were terribly narrow and congested with parked cars. We'll still consider a house out this way, but we are a lot more certain that in town won't work for us!
 
I hit submit before I meant to on that last entry!

Today I woke up to a nightmare where DarkKnight had broken every dating rule in the book - he lied about how he met his new girlfriend, banged her without a condom on the first date without testing and swearing they hadn't been having sex for months, and then going to swinging parties while saying he was someplace else, and again, no protection. I was so horrified when I woke up! Oh, and he had told me she was a nurse but she was actually a stripper who had unprotected sex with some of her clientele. He begged me not to make them break up. I was like, uh, you need to worry about me dumping you, jerkface!

Yeah.

I have a lot of budgeting stuff to do today - bank trip, paying bills, planning our BBQ this coming weekend. I also need to set up the downstairs covered patio (the furniture is all in pile up winter mode) and reorganize my game room. We have a new table and everything is getting rearranged there. Unfortunately, my dream has left me sad and bummed out.

I played some Fallout but I seriously have to get today going, so I am off to shower and to then read another couple of acts in Hamlet with my daughter.
 
I have no idea what is going on with my stress level today, but I am anxious at everything! I made it to the bank and managed to pay all of my bills. I got lunch at Alekos (delicious Italian cold cut sub) and now I am trying to budget for medical costs for the rest of the year. Even though it's all good, I feel wonky as fuck. I need hugs, but WarMan is stressed and busy at work, DarkKnight is busy at work, and PunkRock is sleeping, because his schedule is now overnights for the next two weeks. Ugh. Why am I so out of sorts??? It doesn't make sense when I am actually accomplishing shit!
 
Wow - my day got SO much worse after I posted. A friend came over and brought me a strawberry slush from Sonic, so that was supposed to help, but a biscuit before she arrived, I checked the mail. There was a letter from PunkRock's insurance company, denying any further sleep studies. You see, he's had two already, but we had no idea there had been more ordered. At the moment he is waiting to hear from the doctor about his results.

The insurance company says he had a reported 54 events an hour! This upset me a lot. I knew he was having some sleep apnea, but I had no idea it was that much! It makes perfect sense know why he is so tired all the time, my poor sweetie. Anyway, this information brought me down super low and I started thinking the worst thoughts and getting teary.

Then, I watched Sunday's Game of Thrones episode. Really, motherfuckers? Really?!

Sigh. I was so distraught. Yesterday, things seemed better for WarMan, and he was very snuggly with me, and gave me many hugs whenever I saw him. He also bought everyone pizza last night for dinner, when I was stressing about having to go out and buy food. Making a decision was difficult for me because of my anxiety, so he just told me to lay down and he'd take care of it. Honestly, it was really awesome to be taken care of in that way when I was so worried.

PunkRock also doled out many hugs but it wasn't as helpful, as part of the reason I was distressed involved him.

Things seem better this morning, though I am still concerned about PunkRock's sleep apnea. He has maxed out his flexible spending account and we don't know how much his copay will be for the CPAP machine. Several friends told me they were able to use a payment plan, even though they had shitty insurance.

I also will have maxed out my flexible spending account today - my son needs a root canal at a specialist ($400), and when combined with the cost of the implant I am getting for the tooth that never grew in when I was a child - it's empty. That sucks because I have a bill from the dermatologist sitting on my desk right now ($160) and my copay for my therapist is $60 a pop.

Health care is expensive.

I did accomplish a lot yesterday though, in spite of my wonky feelings. I swept and set up the outdoor furniture on the covered patio, and did the same for the front patio as well. I need to pick up two bags of rocks for the front yard (to fill in a flower bed around a tree) and I really want to buy two hanging flower baskets for the back patio. Maybe I can do that today. Anyway, I also started rearranging the game room - PunkRock and DarkKnight brought in the new 8 foot table from the garage and I moved one of the bookcases. I will definitely work more in there today.

Today I canceled my class since I need to take my son to his root canal at that time. So I have a break from chemistry. :)
 
Just a thought... depending on how much insurance covers toward a CPAP, you might have better luck buying one from craigslist/ebay/etc. I sold mine that way since my sleep apnea has been resolved and the CPAP machine was in great quality. When I posted it there were several others listed as well, so apparently it's a thing. It might be cheaper than buying one through insurance if they don't cover much of the cost? Might at least be worth looking into! Of course, you'd have to make sure you had a manual and possibly do some googling on getting the right options set up on the machine itself, so I'd think it would only be worth it if the price difference was significant.
 
Yes - a few friends recommended that. :) We are going to see just what machine his doctor recommends and why. Other than the paperwork from the insurance company, his doctor hasn't given an "official" diagnosis to PunkRock yet. We should hear something soon though. We have no idea what his copay will even be. We will definitely be checking out craigslist if it's terrible.

I am feeling more optimistic today, that's for sure!
 
Busy day! I had a sleepover with DarkKnight last night, so that means a 5:20 wake up alarm this morning. Since PunkRock is working overnights for the next couple of weeks, I just padded down 2 flights of stairs and curled up in his bed until he got home at 6 am. I fell back asleep with him and then I was up at 9:00, to play some Fallout, before showering and heading downstairs to get the day going.

I had a produce order come in today, from the organic co-op I buy from. I was kind of bummed because I wanted this sushi and it didn't arrive. I got a free jar of almond butter though. Lol I made a fruit salad and set my daughter to cutting up cucumbers for a snack.
 
Had to cut off up there - took my son to his root canal appointment and got socked for $400. He definitely needs a crown on that, yay fun.

I spent the rest of the day working in my game room, reorganizing the bookshelves and moving things around. It is still a huge mess but it's in progress! I listed some things for sale and made $50.

PunkRock and I watched a couple of episodes of Prison Break.

Gosh, isn't my life amazing? :)
 
Not sure if I mentioned this or not, but I have scheduled a therapy appointment for both WarMan and I to go to together. I have an appointment alone again on the 1st, and then he and I will go together on the 15th. There are a couple of reasons for this, primarily being that we want to work on our communication issues. The second, for him to be able to meet my therapist - my husbands had a time to sit down with me and the therapist, and WarMan never did.

Today I have nothing scheduled on the calendar and my youngest slept over at a friend's house, so I really have a completely open day. Unfortunately, or scheduled friends and family BBQ is on Sunday, and my house is seriously a wreck! The game room is still in shambles, and I have to do a chemistry lab tomorrow, so at the very least I have to clear off our new table. It's 4 ft x 8 ft long, and it is entirely covered by my scrapbooking stuff. I need to consolidate it all and organize it on my craft desk. I am kind of looking forward to it as I haven't done much scrapbooking, since Christmas when I completed those ancestry albums about my grandfather's side of the family.

Actually, as I am typing this, I am getting excited. Yesterday I went through my board game collection and managed to weed out 7 or so to sell in our upcoming yard sale, and I hope to be able to do the same here with my scrapbook stuff. I seriously have so much! That said, I have yet to finish my 3 kiddos' lifebooks (an adoption-motivated scrapbook showing my kids' history of moves and their experiences) and that means I need to not toss anything too important! I also plan to complete an ancestry scrapbook by Christmas of this year for my grandmother's side of the family. One major purchase I need to make soon though, is a larger format printer, so I can handle printing out copies of the 12x12 books myself. Last year that was the most frustrating experience for me - trying to get copies made for my extended family, as they had requested them. Owning the equipment and doing it myself will be a big help. I think I can purchase one for around $400, so I hope to have that my the end of the summer.
 
Things are going pretty okay in the sex department lately. WarMan has been stressed because of his job, so I haven't been reaching out to him as much, because I know it's hard for him to relax with garbage going on all day. That said, he surprised me last night and we had a good time. He talked to me a bit after about how I should be okay with masturbating more, and he joked that I should talk to my therapist about it. This was funny because my therapist is a Mormon and masturbation is a HUGE no-no with them.

Anyway, I had surprise sex with PunkRock this afternoon today - which was actually kind of WarMan's fault! I had delayed my lunch until 2 pm so that WarMan and I could eat together, but he was scheduled into the on-call rotation and when the time rolled around, he couldn't break away. That made me sad, but it happens. I was starving though, so I went down and woke up PunkRock (he's working overnights and had gotten home at 6 am this morning). He and I went over to Subway for lunch and then came back and watched an episode of Prison Break. He started fingering me on the couch, and then we went back to his room and had a good connection. We hadn't had anal sex in a long while, so we ended with that - holy crap, that was good. :) Actually, he and I have been switching things up in the bedroom lately - nothing kinky or too crazy. But just different, fun positions. I think having now been married for a year, we are really connecting and I know I feel just so safe with him.

Sex with DarkKnight is still the same as always - he's my once a week go-to guy. Which sounds boring, but honestly, it's comforting to know that even when PunkRock and WarMan are going through stressful times or hit a dry spell, at least DarkKnight will be there to give me lovins. :) Now that I think about it, he's due for some special snuggle times tonight. :)
 
I *think* we're okay with 23 people at the BBQ on Sunday. I have some others on the maybe list, but I'm not going to sweat it. Some of these are children. :) My house is still a wreck though - after I finish my tea here in a minute, I'm going to shower, plan dinner for tonight and then finish cleaning off the new table in the game room. Most of it is organized now and should be presentable at the party, thank goodness. The important thing now though, is that I teach a lab at 1 pm, so I need the table clear so I can teach!
 
Wow today has been crazy! It's been good though, so that's a positive!

I had to get up early to take WarMan's car in to get new brakes - my daughter drove it over and I picked her up. On the way back I used the time to have her practice interview questions - which I am glad I did because she got a call this afternoon for a job interview at the place PunkRock works! I had lunch with her and we talked more about her after-graduation plans, as I fielded a call this morning from the trade school she is attending in the Fall, and she needs $2300 for the first year's tuition. If she gets hired, that should be do-able.

I spent time today fielding questions and scheduling things with my Astronomy class. I've already received some payments and both class sessions are half full. Not bad since I put out the official notice yesterday afternoon. I am excited about teaching this subject again.

A few minutes ago I finally finished cleaning out my fridge in preparation for the BBQ Sunday - now I just need to go grocery shopping! That's on the schedule for tomorrow, at this point.
 
Omg it is so hot here today! I don't even want to do anything at all, but there's the matter of this big BBQ tomorrow...

I had to leave DarkKnight's room last night at 4 am - it was just too hot. I went back to WarMan's room since he has air conditioning, and fell back to sleep. Woke back up at 8 am, and then hung out with DarkKnight again til 11. Then I went and woke up WarMan, since I was pretty sure he was late for getting up and going to see Monkey.

I was having a pretty down day in the morning. I felt unattractive and shaped not unlike a potato. I told WarMan I was feeling blah and asked him if my period was coming. He wasn't sure, but he then told me I should have just let him sleep instead of waking him up, if I was going to be in the bathroom and getting ready. This set off a fight that I just didn't want to have.

He switched gears at some point and said he was sorry but he could have just dropped it, honestly. I was hot and worn out and feeling terrible enough. I really didn't want to discuss why I was wrong again.

I then went and spent the morning and afternoon with DarkKnight. We did tons of grocery shopping at Sam's Club and Weis and got almost everything needed for the BBQ. Then I grabbed PunkRock awake and we watched the last two episodes of season 1 Prison Break. I then started doing some more prep work for the BBQ.

DarkKnight and I just had some good sex and it was really too hot for it. Ugh. I am just exhausted and still feel unattractive. Tonight is my night with PunkRock but I hate to say it, I am so not in the mood for more sex. I feel pretty unlovable at the moment.

I had forgotten to put my guys and I and my kids in the attendance count for the BBQ tomorrow, so we are expecting 34 total with us included. So far only WarMan's sole guest has backed out. People are lame, so I am expecting some cancellations but they didn't happen today so who knows. I was disappointed that WarMan's friend won't be there but whatever. I really am too hot and tired to care much at this point. DarkKnight was actually a little disappointed because he was looking forward to drinking some weird beers with this guy. Anyway, that's where DarkKnight is now - he went to the liquor store.

I guess I should get out of bed and go do more set up but I really am in a shitty mood.
 
Guess I should get caught up here. :)

The BBQ was a success. We actually ended up with more people than expected! The final tally was 36, I think, including my polycule. After all the work we did outside, most people stayed indoors - it was really warm out! The kids used the swingset and enjoyed the sidewalk chalk I left out for the back patio concrete. I also helped them with a game of water pinata - where we blew up water balloons and hung them from the monkey bar set, and then they hit them with a stick while blindfolded. That was fun. :)

That's probably it for us hosting anything this summer though - even as a pot luck (we supplied burgers, hot dogs and fixins), we spent close to $150 on the food, drinks, picnicware, ice and flowers. I was thinking of having a big party for my daughter's graduation, but none of the extended family can make it and she is kind of meh about the idea. I will be ordering her diploma this week though, and I think I will plan at least a fancy dinner out with all of us to celebrate. We are gifting her with plane tickets to go see her younger birthsister out in Colorado in July. I was also thinking of hosting an Escape Room party for her and 6 friends, but that may be cost prohibitive at this point. Oh! She has a job interview this Thursday, where PunkRock works. It will be just part time, which is good because she needs to get an apprenticeship for her HVAC school in the Fall. That is in progress as well.
 
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Well, I went ahead and booked the Escape Room for my daughter's graduation party - she was excited about that, so I made it happen. All of the friends she invited can make the date, except for one, so that worked out wonderfully.

I just got back from shopping for a special treat for both my oldest daughter and WarMan's daughter - I am making them each a surprise gift box to send them in the mail. It'll say Orange you glad it's almost summer?! and everything in it is orange. Dorky, I know, but I am having fun putting it together. They are getting orange silly putty, nail polish, popcorn, candy, water guns, stuff like that. The only hangup right now is that I don't have any boxes large enough to actually send it out. lol

Let's see - today I actually made it over to the motor vehicle office and was able to leave with my new license! It has my new name on it and I am so excited! I keep pulling it out and looking at it, to see if it is real. :) It's such an amazing feeling. PunkRock and I have been really close lately too - this morning he texted me and then when I came downstairs, he was super sweet, telling me he is always so happy to see me and that he loves me so very much. After that, I had to carve out time to get my new ID! Tomorrow I am going to try and make it over to the bank in the afternoon to update my information there, and order a new ATM card.

I had an appointment early in the afternoon with my therapist and that went really well. I gave him a head's up that WarMan will be attending the next session with me and he said that sounded like a great idea. I am really hoping that maybe WarMan will start going to therapy - not necessarily with my guy - because lately he has been so terribly depressed and stressed out over his job. It is really hard to be positive when he is so down.

After therapy, a close friend came over and made bracelets with me while we hung out and talked about everything going on in our lives. That was fun.

DarkKnight and PunkRock went to dinner with me tonight - we went to Ledo's and stuffed ourselves with salad, pizza and wings. Prolly shouldn't have done that but it was yummy!
 
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