MrFarFromRight
Banned
OK, genebean, your time is up! I don't mean the time you agreed on with polypenguin. If you both made a deal to give you, genebean, more time to get used to the idea of poly, then you should both respect that.I feel like someone who is bi-polar. And I feel like she takes every time I mention another person in this relationship out on me. More and more, I feel like she hates me for this.
I don't feel like she trrusts me with anyone but her. I don't feel like i'm allowed to be with friends unless she's around. And I feel more lonely now than I ever have in my life. I don't think she has any desire to deal with her jealousy, because it's easier for her to be complacent. She's fine with her other partners being with other people, but not me.
I don't know how to deal with this, and it's breaking my heart.
What I'm about to say has to be read with the following proviso:
I don't often get to an Internet connection. I'm stealing time now from wading through pages and pages of e-mails, deciding which are worth opening and reading. This means that I haven't taken the time to read your own threads. And I'm all too aware that there are always more than one side to a story. But - going by what polypenguin has written (as if we could believe HIM!!!) - you do seem rather unfair on this. That should read totally unfair. You're allowed all the freedom you need to explore relationships with other partners... and you're "fine with her other partners being with other people", but the [supposedly?] most important person in your life isn't allowed any freedom at all???
I repeat that - so far - I can only go by what I've read, and that - so far - I haven't read your side of the situation. And I'd LIKE to.
So PLEASE write on this thread. (Or - as they shout through the megaphone at those boat-rental-on-park-lakes places - "Come in, number 31: your time is up.")