Thanks for answer kdt.
Yes, it takes me time to figure it all out. I broke up with my female lover Annie, she wrote that she has no romantical feelings for me. We had beautiful sex and I always thought that we love each other in same way...but I fell more like she begins to value our friendship less because we sleep with each other...now, when I read her blog, where she writes that it is only physical and we are friends and that she cannot get involved with polyamorous person...I just decided to act and end the physical part of our relationship.
Mr. Flower is complicated...if he was my ex, it will be easier to just cut him off. But we never really started a relationship...and I tried three times to delete his number and always I wrote him again. I kind of understand him, because at the beginning of our "relationship" I gave him so many red flags...I was acting completely insane...but sometimes we quite of met in our insanity. it is some of the most romantic things that could happen to me I thought...but it is also dangerous. My biggest fear was that he will just disappear from my life. Maybe it is not a romantic relationship that I "desperately" want. I just want to clean mess between the two of us.
Mr. Green is really promising. Sun thinks that he likes me a lot, but I am not good at noticing that someone likes me...like I often forget that Sun and Nic love me. But it gets better with time. We have a really good dynamic these times as triad. Actually, we talked really seriously about children.
Yes, it takes me time to figure it all out. I broke up with my female lover Annie, she wrote that she has no romantical feelings for me. We had beautiful sex and I always thought that we love each other in same way...but I fell more like she begins to value our friendship less because we sleep with each other...now, when I read her blog, where she writes that it is only physical and we are friends and that she cannot get involved with polyamorous person...I just decided to act and end the physical part of our relationship.
Mr. Flower is complicated...if he was my ex, it will be easier to just cut him off. But we never really started a relationship...and I tried three times to delete his number and always I wrote him again. I kind of understand him, because at the beginning of our "relationship" I gave him so many red flags...I was acting completely insane...but sometimes we quite of met in our insanity. it is some of the most romantic things that could happen to me I thought...but it is also dangerous. My biggest fear was that he will just disappear from my life. Maybe it is not a romantic relationship that I "desperately" want. I just want to clean mess between the two of us.
Mr. Green is really promising. Sun thinks that he likes me a lot, but I am not good at noticing that someone likes me...like I often forget that Sun and Nic love me. But it gets better with time. We have a really good dynamic these times as triad. Actually, we talked really seriously about children.