I've found that emotionally, I can only handle one partner in a addition to Hubby. For me, relationships are a lot of stress because I'm constantly worried about saying or doing the wrong thing and pissing off my partner, or that my partner will get sick of me having anxiety and depression and will bail if I don't keep it hidden. Both of which, unfortunately, are fears based in past reality. (Woody has been trying to get me to understand that neither of those things will happen with him, but I'm still not at the complete belief stage with that...)
Since those fears are even present with Hubby, though not nearly as much, having to deal with them with more than two partners would, I think, have me hiding under the bed...I had trouble even dealing with one long distance and one in person relationship in addition to Hubby.
That said, sometimes, especially now that Woody is helping me become more comfortable and confident sexually, I think it might be nice to have a FWB or a fuck buddy for times when I want sex but Woody isnt available and Hubby isn't interested, or when I just want uncomplicated sex. (For me, at least, sex with a relationship partner is complicated by definition.) Woody and I have talked about arranging an MFM for me; since Hubby has refused to participate and I don't like the idea of bringing in someone neither Woody nor I knows, and he knows way more people than I do, I've left it to him to find someone he trusts to participate, and I've asked that, if possible, it be someone who might be interested in an ongoing FWB thing with me.
Of course, Woody being Woody, the MFM will probably never happen...bug I haven't given up hope yet.
Since those fears are even present with Hubby, though not nearly as much, having to deal with them with more than two partners would, I think, have me hiding under the bed...I had trouble even dealing with one long distance and one in person relationship in addition to Hubby.
That said, sometimes, especially now that Woody is helping me become more comfortable and confident sexually, I think it might be nice to have a FWB or a fuck buddy for times when I want sex but Woody isnt available and Hubby isn't interested, or when I just want uncomplicated sex. (For me, at least, sex with a relationship partner is complicated by definition.) Woody and I have talked about arranging an MFM for me; since Hubby has refused to participate and I don't like the idea of bringing in someone neither Woody nor I knows, and he knows way more people than I do, I've left it to him to find someone he trusts to participate, and I've asked that, if possible, it be someone who might be interested in an ongoing FWB thing with me.
Of course, Woody being Woody, the MFM will probably never happen...bug I haven't given up hope yet.