curiousjanet
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Me and my husband have been married for 7 years, together 10. We have discussed polyamory, open marriage, etc. He decided he was not comfortable with all of that and suggested a three some. Well we tried the other night. Met his buddy at a bar. I had so much fun being able to be all over this guy who I've wanted to sleep with since I first met him. I can't sleep with anyone I don't have chemistry with. Anyway to start with me, the husband, and the friend were in the backseat of our car while our other friend drove home. The friend was snuggling up to me and kissing on my neck and so was husband. After driver took himself home me and friend were in the backseat while husband drove to location. While it was just me and friend in the back it was perfect. We snuggled and kissed and talked and stuff When it came down to it the friend got uncomfortable with husband being involved and he just played with my boobs and rubbed my back (seriously massaged my back while I was on top of my husband) and stuff while hubby did the deed. Anyway this entire scenario really proved to me that I want polyamory. I wasn't even mad or upset that things didn't work out. And my favorite thing was the conversation in the backseat where I found out friend is a person who can only sleep with people he has chemistry with and actually feels a little guilty for having chemistry with me. Friend wants to try again and husband is okay with it even though he seen the chemistry and emotions between us. I know if I bring up emotions husband will be mad. If I don't bring up emotions I'm worried it may be some sort of betrayal. I want poly and husband knows this so what did he think would happen. He said he doesn't want it to be with just friend, he wants a mff and for me to find other guys for mfm too. I just told him there's not any other guys I have chemistry with right now and he's okay with that. Problem is I want more. I want to be able to text and talk to friend without him present. I'm fine with sex only if he's involved because I'm more of an emotional person. I have a feeling these thoughts are going down the wrong rode but I don't know what to do. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.