Saphiredark
New member
hey everyone,
I am so awkward a this but nobody knows who I am so it is ok.
I met this girl fall 2014 at some conference in my city and something just kept making me stare at her to the point where I'd just look down because everytime I looked up, my eyes would look for her. We'd make eye contact several times. we ended up exchanging facebook info nothing happened and the conference was over, the END?
fast forward to the summer, I was at another conference and she happn to be there because it was in her hometown, I had no idea! I hadn't seen her since. we spoke from time to time in between and had some cool conversations but nothing serious. she found me at the conference for a few minutes we danced at the party then she told me she was leaving with her partner. I was like OH! ok...left it at that and figured I'd rarely hear from her again.
FAST FORWARD...OCTOBER
she happen to come to my state because of some family emergency and reached out to me wanting to hang out since she is never here and doesn't know much folk here. I said hmmm ok I don't mind hanging out plantonically with someone for the evening. BUT....we went out dancing which was ok...she basically watched me for the night and we danced a couple times and we went back to my apartment since it was easier for her to catch her bus back that way.
WE STAYED UP talking all night!! about EVERYTHING! we connected and we just started telling each other things and having conversations that shocked the both of us. it was like we were the same people....we had similar experiences with everything! it was like speaking to myself. It was and still is very cool! we even think the same way.
FAST FORWARD to December.
we had been talking heavily in between and to no limits either and things started getting deep and I joked saying you must be POLY since I don't see you setting limits on how close we get...she said yea but she wants to remain platonic because of various reasons and I said ok no probs so I put myself back on the market and started a monogamous relationship with someone.
I was travelling and told her I'd make a pit stop to see her in NY if she wanted and she said yea and I could stay a couple nights so we could hang out. I said cool! so to make a long story short....we ended up clicking and talking about everything under the sun and had sex multiple times and it felt like nothing before for the either of us.
She had spoken to her partner about it and he is cool about it granted the relationship type and he is just invested as to how it contributed to her growth...we both said never again.
TILL this past week where I went down again for work and I stayed longer and we couldn't keep our hands and bodies off each other. NOW feelings are involved. MIND YOU....I still have my GF. :-/
she is terrified because she is madly in love with her partner and she feels the potential of us interfering with that since I live closer than he does who lives back in her hometown a thousand miles away. Talking to her is amazing and connecting with her is like floating in space with a companion as you comment on the stars and universe all around us.
I don't get that with my current partner...even though she is a wonderful person, she is funny, and we always have a good time.
I have always considered a poly relationship since I could never seem to keep the same person for longer than a month and I connect with so many people.
SO LOONG!!! SORRY! please help :-/
I am so awkward a this but nobody knows who I am so it is ok.
I met this girl fall 2014 at some conference in my city and something just kept making me stare at her to the point where I'd just look down because everytime I looked up, my eyes would look for her. We'd make eye contact several times. we ended up exchanging facebook info nothing happened and the conference was over, the END?
fast forward to the summer, I was at another conference and she happn to be there because it was in her hometown, I had no idea! I hadn't seen her since. we spoke from time to time in between and had some cool conversations but nothing serious. she found me at the conference for a few minutes we danced at the party then she told me she was leaving with her partner. I was like OH! ok...left it at that and figured I'd rarely hear from her again.
FAST FORWARD...OCTOBER
she happen to come to my state because of some family emergency and reached out to me wanting to hang out since she is never here and doesn't know much folk here. I said hmmm ok I don't mind hanging out plantonically with someone for the evening. BUT....we went out dancing which was ok...she basically watched me for the night and we danced a couple times and we went back to my apartment since it was easier for her to catch her bus back that way.
WE STAYED UP talking all night!! about EVERYTHING! we connected and we just started telling each other things and having conversations that shocked the both of us. it was like we were the same people....we had similar experiences with everything! it was like speaking to myself. It was and still is very cool! we even think the same way.
FAST FORWARD to December.
we had been talking heavily in between and to no limits either and things started getting deep and I joked saying you must be POLY since I don't see you setting limits on how close we get...she said yea but she wants to remain platonic because of various reasons and I said ok no probs so I put myself back on the market and started a monogamous relationship with someone.
I was travelling and told her I'd make a pit stop to see her in NY if she wanted and she said yea and I could stay a couple nights so we could hang out. I said cool! so to make a long story short....we ended up clicking and talking about everything under the sun and had sex multiple times and it felt like nothing before for the either of us.
She had spoken to her partner about it and he is cool about it granted the relationship type and he is just invested as to how it contributed to her growth...we both said never again.
TILL this past week where I went down again for work and I stayed longer and we couldn't keep our hands and bodies off each other. NOW feelings are involved. MIND YOU....I still have my GF. :-/
she is terrified because she is madly in love with her partner and she feels the potential of us interfering with that since I live closer than he does who lives back in her hometown a thousand miles away. Talking to her is amazing and connecting with her is like floating in space with a companion as you comment on the stars and universe all around us.
I don't get that with my current partner...even though she is a wonderful person, she is funny, and we always have a good time.
I have always considered a poly relationship since I could never seem to keep the same person for longer than a month and I connect with so many people.
SO LOONG!!! SORRY! please help :-/