I have been married for 9 years and known my husband for 10 years. He was the best thing that ever happened to me until, 5 years ago where i feel my marriage has been going through rocky times every now and then.
i was on a holiday while my husband was back home.He happened to watch a documentary on swingers club their life, open relationship. He was very intrigued by that and asked me if i was up to try something like that. I was pregnant at that time so we decided to just go watch it at the swingers club. It was crazy to see things the way they were for the first time but very fantasizing once we were back being intimate and to have those images. so we decided to try it further after our baby was born.
I gave birth to our beautiful daughter and obviously nneded at least six weeks before i could start to get back into whole sex thing with my husband. But my husband had no self control he was desperate to have sex and it had been only 2 weeks post pregnancy so, I gave him the permission to go pay and have sex which he did. It was very hurtful but seeing him the way he was i had to make that choice. It took me a while to get out of it as i had a lot going on post pregnancy hormones, sleepless nights, horny husband.
That phase passed we got back in few months back into swinging and met a few couples. couldn't do much as my husband was trying to get action i had the baby with me so it was ruled out for me there and ended up feeling further miserable and insecure.so we decided we will take some more time to get back into this as kids were too young and i was not comfortable.
that year he had a lot of travelling. He went to Hungary, and ended up having sex and decided not to tell me.He had told one of his friend about us being into swinging which i was not aware of and so while my husband was away he decided to come home and give it a shot. Here i was not knowing anything he started to mention i am such an cool wife to let her husband have sex with other women and he is ok with you to have sex with another man and in that process he mentioned that my husband had sex with this girl in hungary , which was shocking and even more shocking was that this guy is actually hitting on me and wants to have sex. That moment i felt very hurt that despite all the freedom of letting him have sex with a hooker trying the swinging thing yet he cheated on me.
He rushed in from his travelling finding out that i knew he had cheated on me. We spoke through hings and decided that swinging was not our cup of tea and we needed to pull Veto to it. And had good couple of years after.
And it all started again .... this time it was that we need to try things before we are too old and what if we regret looking back as what if we had . So I have yet again allowed him and he is full in swing meeting girls and getting ready to have sex with few of them. It has been bothering me so much to the point where i love him but his sex drive is now pushing me further away from him. i don't have that respect for him that i had. no doubt i love him that's probably why i have hung around with this man for such a long time. but i don't know if i am prepared for myself to go through this feeling any further. Its all about him and what if he regrets so on and so forth and my feelings are so unnoticed. I am so confused with what i am letting him do is bothering me so much.Either he needs help or i do...
i was on a holiday while my husband was back home.He happened to watch a documentary on swingers club their life, open relationship. He was very intrigued by that and asked me if i was up to try something like that. I was pregnant at that time so we decided to just go watch it at the swingers club. It was crazy to see things the way they were for the first time but very fantasizing once we were back being intimate and to have those images. so we decided to try it further after our baby was born.
I gave birth to our beautiful daughter and obviously nneded at least six weeks before i could start to get back into whole sex thing with my husband. But my husband had no self control he was desperate to have sex and it had been only 2 weeks post pregnancy so, I gave him the permission to go pay and have sex which he did. It was very hurtful but seeing him the way he was i had to make that choice. It took me a while to get out of it as i had a lot going on post pregnancy hormones, sleepless nights, horny husband.
That phase passed we got back in few months back into swinging and met a few couples. couldn't do much as my husband was trying to get action i had the baby with me so it was ruled out for me there and ended up feeling further miserable and insecure.so we decided we will take some more time to get back into this as kids were too young and i was not comfortable.
that year he had a lot of travelling. He went to Hungary, and ended up having sex and decided not to tell me.He had told one of his friend about us being into swinging which i was not aware of and so while my husband was away he decided to come home and give it a shot. Here i was not knowing anything he started to mention i am such an cool wife to let her husband have sex with other women and he is ok with you to have sex with another man and in that process he mentioned that my husband had sex with this girl in hungary , which was shocking and even more shocking was that this guy is actually hitting on me and wants to have sex. That moment i felt very hurt that despite all the freedom of letting him have sex with a hooker trying the swinging thing yet he cheated on me.
He rushed in from his travelling finding out that i knew he had cheated on me. We spoke through hings and decided that swinging was not our cup of tea and we needed to pull Veto to it. And had good couple of years after.
And it all started again .... this time it was that we need to try things before we are too old and what if we regret looking back as what if we had . So I have yet again allowed him and he is full in swing meeting girls and getting ready to have sex with few of them. It has been bothering me so much to the point where i love him but his sex drive is now pushing me further away from him. i don't have that respect for him that i had. no doubt i love him that's probably why i have hung around with this man for such a long time. but i don't know if i am prepared for myself to go through this feeling any further. Its all about him and what if he regrets so on and so forth and my feelings are so unnoticed. I am so confused with what i am letting him do is bothering me so much.Either he needs help or i do...