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    Stepping Out

    Springeth hath sprungeth.... Hey all. I know I go months at a time between posts, but turns out that interval is just right for me. So, update. I recently read back over all the posts in my blog. The early, embryonic, confused-and-mostly-unable-to-communicate...
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    "Poly-ham-mory"

    Etsy - great idea. Thanks!!
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    Polyamory as a modality for spiritual growth

    Hi Carson. And, a resonant YES. Though I don't have time to reply more than that for now...
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    "Poly-ham-mory"

    Ok, I admit this is D-U-M-B. But it's funny (to me). My brain chews on words and concepts at times and spits out new ones and hybrids as it chooses (especially when it's the consistency of noodles from having a sinus infection and being quasi-scrambled on cold meds and the like). Z is a...
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    New poly-relationship has me in crisis!

    THIS: Is a **great** idea and way to approach striking a balance between her need to tell and your need to know. BMB
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    Stepping Out

    I'm big on reading and books, and big on self-help stuff. Help yourself. Of course. So I chewed on this book called I Need Your Love. Is That True? by Byron Katie. GREAT stuff. All about keeping your mind where it should be - in YOUR OWN business. About your unspoken and often undetected...
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    Stepping Out

    Check-in Last post was about three months ago. Short lowdown for now. More later. End of July, Z, Pix, and I ended up having the threesome. I won't say it was a fail, but I will say it was one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life. We'd all had a couple of drinks to...
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    Stepping Out

    More Change - Tables Turned. Pt. I 7.13.14 Seems like the changes have it lately. :) Not all pleasant, not all unpleasant. This is a land I've been in very little up til now. I've moved back home, to my homecity from the high desert mountains a day away. Am glad about it. Started a new day...
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    Stepping Out

    So Much Change. Been a month since I posted/visited, and a lot has happened. I started this huge, winding tale, but it's gotten so long and confusing (even to me, timeline-wise) that I'm starting all over and trying to condense. I'll hit the highlights here and elaborate later. Went home for...
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    Stepping Out

    Codependence/Independence/Interdependence A very good friend of mine, who keeps up with my ongoings out here through my blog, suggested this article to me: On codependence, independence, and interdependence - how to identify & work thru the "continuum"...
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    The Notebook of JaneQSmythe

    Yeah, happy (belated) anniversary to you guys!!!! :D
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    Stepping Out

    Upd8 - Part II So. I'm headed back home in about two weeks, MOL, for two gigs there – one by request of a good friend and fellow vocalist (a badass) with whom I shared a fun, sweet, heavily delicious fling-thing seven or so years ago (while I was with J – ugh, I know) that never went all the...
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    Stepping Out

    Upd8 - Part I It's been raining and snowing some (big, fat flakes, although not a blizzard of them by any means) here in this high desert space for most of the day. I just slept a little over three hours (ah, naps) in the middle of the day after getting up at the crack of dawn and beginning...
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    Renaissance of Realizations

    Sorry if this is so long as to seem like a threadjack, but your last posts really resonate with me. This - ”The way that I handle being afraid, vulnerable, insecure, or upset has a tendency to lean towards BPD - I don't meet a great deal of the criteria, but in the way that I feel so deeply...
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    Stepping Out

    I feel that way too. I'm not a back-turner... Speaking only specifically of my personal situation: even when there's seemingly been "betrayal" involved, I've learned how to weigh my lover's intentions against the follies of simply being human. I get it. In my situation, it's normally been a...
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