Brunetteangel03

thank you so much! I know the two lifestyles are incredibly different, but they just made me feel like I was less important than them because I was a civilian. How are things with the new interest? my gf and bf's house closes today, so they will be moving out, it will be difficult, but I think I have prepared myself for it. they will still be around sometimes, but the nights will be hard for me because i am so used to the both of them sleeping with me. this weekend is going to be insane trying to fix it up. we have a month to get the house livable because she goes to pick up their four kids in Oct!

hey lady,
don't go beating yourself up now. civilians have a different life than do enlisted people. no better or worse, just different. don't let those girls make you feel bad, to hell with them. if your gf and bf care for you, then that is all that matters. everyone else can just go kick rocks. i know it was probably incredibly nerve wracking (i don't do well in big groups or with those i don't know either), but next time it will be better. i'm sure it was very hard to hear, and i am sorry that you had to go through that
don't feel insignificant, because you are not.

So true about the lgbt community, it is so hard for us bisexuals to really fit into any kind of setting because of the judgements, I have lost a gf due to my being bisexual.
this weekend was a bit interesting. I went out with her and her army girlies over the weekend and had a horrid panic attack! I don't do well with new ppl and totally didn't feel like I fit in because my being civilian. One of the girls made me feel like us civilian girls are too emotional and non-important. My bf tried to explain to me that just coming back from Iraq, some have a had time hanging out with civilians right away. But it was hard to hear. I mean I understand that soldiers fight for their country, but just because I am a civilian doesn't mean I don't fight as well. I support many causes...cancer, childeren and the environment. I guess I am just feeling insignificant compared to Army ppl....

i will keep you posted on the new interest. hopefully we will get a chance to meet up in about a week fingers crossed, she seems pretty rad from what i know already.

yeah, being apart and then living together again can be a huge struggle. experience tells me that. happy to hear that they are doing better i'm also happy to hear that things are evening out with bf and gf, excellent news. i'm sure that as time goes on things will get smoother and smoother.
women are a wonderful thing. something about their touch, taste, even their smell. ah. heaven. and you are so right about how hetero's and the lbgt community treats bisexuals! it's like we have an extra growing out the side of our head or something! and lbgt people are supposed to be open-minded. ime, they are usually the more close-minded and judgemental group.
whatever. all i know is that i love my husband lots, but i love women just as much. if i can have both in my life, then i'm a happy camper.

Wow the new interest sounds very exciting! I really want more experience with girls, but the gay and hetero communities view bisexuals very differently. They feel we are just going through a phase, but I have liked both since my first experience back in high school!

I haven't gotten involved with their relationship and I think just with her getting back there is an adjustment period for them both since they hadn't seen each other in 6 months and alot of things change when you are at war. I feel it is getting better. They get their time alone together and talk about things/differences and they are working things out...so for now I will stay out of it.

The GF and I are doing a lot better a bit less awkward now. I felt for awhile that he had to initiate our physical contact with her and I, but she actually did last night which was a huge shocker. I don't want to push her into anything she isn't ready for. She hasn't been with alot of girls and I don't want to make her uncomfortable with being with one. He actually just stood back when we started at it last night and sort of let us have our space, which was pretty cool. (sorry if this is at all TMI)

oh! on a happy note, i may have met a new interest! she seems really cool, and beautiful to boot. i think i would like to chat back and forth a bit more before we actually meet. and she lives less than 50 miles away so that is way cool too. don't want to get the cart in front of the horse....but i am pretty excited about the prospect.

i tattooed a huge rose, red orange and yellow, and a large daisy, dark pink and purple, with some leaves and vines thrown in for good measure. it takes up about 25% of my upper arm. so far it is healing really good. i know what you mean about having them planned out, i think i have a whole folder of "tattoo ideas". lol.
with your bf and how his wife is treating him.... i would hold back on getting involved in their relationship, unless of course he asks you for your opinion/advice. i know it sucks seeing the one you care about being mistreated, but more often than not (in my experience) that person will not do anything about it until they are ready to do so. just my thoughts.
that is so sweet they bought you flowers! what girl doesn't like flowers!? and if them paying for what feels like everything, then tell them. in a polite and tactful way of course. tell them you don't want them to feel like you are taking advantage of them. talk talk talk. i have a feeling they will understand

Wow! Sounds like fun! What are you getting tatooed? I have a couple planned I just need to get them done lol. I totally agree on the communication factor and thus far we have done so well with it. His wife seems kinda harsh on him sometimes though, and it really pains me to see him get hurt by her, but I feel like if I get involved I may step on toes, so I stay out of it. I just hate to see him like that sometimes.

they bought me flowers yesterday, it was so sweet! I feel kinda bad because they are always the ones that pay for everything. I don't want them to think I am taking advantage of them. so I am not sure how to resolve this one yet.

Have fun on the beach with your horse

it's excellent to hear that things are going so well! wow, you are a busy lady and yeah, balancing is a tough act! best piece of advice i can give is talk! communication is key. the lack there-of cost me someone very special. another subject for another day.
things here have been a tad chaotic. busy with work, everyone wants new tattoos cause it's summer! lol. which is good, work is work. right?
i tattooed my arm for about 3 hours last night, started a big cover-up that has been long overdue. it's gonna be so cool when i get done! maybe 2 or 3 more sessions i estimate -
that is about all that is new and exciting here. if all goes according to plan, my horse and i are going to the beach for a ride tomorrow!

I am sorry it has been so long! Work has me going crazy and I don't have internet hooked up because I just moved into the apartment that I am at. Anyways, everything is going unbelievably well! She and I get along well and Him and I are doing great still! This is all still very new to all of us, so we are really trying to learn to balance everyone which is proving to be challenging sometimes. How are things with you?

Excellent! I'm very happy for you

I finally met her. She is totally awesome and we are hitting it off fairly well. She is beautiful too.

oh, that's lame! sorry, girl. i will continue to keep my fingers crossed for you
that's cool how you met bf.
i keep hoping to bump into a gal and hit it off, gotta get over my "terminal shyness" though. lol, really throws a wrench in the works if ya know what i mean.
best of luck, let me know how it goes with gf....

O and I met him at a gay bar that him and his wife go to all the time. He wasn't even going to go but decided to grab a drink and dinner and met me and chatted with me all night instead

She didn't fly in...they left a bit later than expected, she will be flying in tonight! So I still have the jitter's this is def not getting any better. I know it will be fine, but this is really not getting any better, these butterflies are killing me!

...oh, i forgot to ask....so how did you meet your bf and gf?

well yay! tomorrow will be great! i will think good thoughts for you being in a triad is awesome, so much love and support from all angles. and yeah, all kinds of possibilities will open up. best of luck, lady. let me know how it goes

You are fine, I am an open book lol. I am not in the service, my dad was for 21 years. I love getting on base when I get the chance, lol it sort of feels like home for me. I have been with him for 1 month now and I meet her for the first time TOMORROW! I am so excited/nervous/anxious, I won't be able to eat today because my stomach is in knots! Him and I are hoping to create a triangle Triad, right now it is a V, but if all goes well, I will have a gf and bf soon. this experience has been so mind blowing and exciting for me, the possibilities are endless...