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  1. starlight1

    Living Truthfully Within

    Theres a lot going on over here. I found out more of Arbors lies...I think now that no matter how much he loves me or I him, that the lies are a deal breaker. It doesn't make him a safe partner for me, and certainly not a healthy person to do Polyamory with. This is breaking my heart, but I...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    Welp the date flaked. I saw it coming as she didn't respond day of event so I planned work instead since my work is flexible and then didn't worry about it too much. I didn't make plans again because when she called to talk to me about why she cancelled there was a lot of incompatible issues (no...
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    Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

    I had similar surgery last November. Please be careful not to overdo it! With diabetes your recovery is slower, and it's still major surgery. Even if the incision is only 6 inches on this side, they took a huge chunk out of you (tumor/cyst?) and the ovaries/uterus/fallopian tubes. Let people...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    I have a date on sunday with a woman... :) I'm super excited. It's just going hiking and then somewhere cool. But i'm excited.
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    Living Truthfully Within

    Two women reached out to me on bumble and i'm feeling it out. I have no idea how to cultivate more with a woman, its been so long however I do remember it going a bit slower than men. I'm excited and nervous and hoping to meet both of them in the near future.
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    The butterfly diaries

    Huge hugs Evie for Ayin. I'm so very sorry for your loss. :(
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    Living Truthfully Within

    So, I went on a date on Saturday with a new (self proclaimed poly) person. Didn't pan out, for various reasons. I wasn't expecting to have any male dates anyway because I set my profile as women only dating but male and female friends on bumble and I guess he slid through the friend filter, or...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    I went on a much needed mini vacation to a lake with a beach and lots of greenery with Arbor this week. It was incredible. Arbor asked me to marry him again and I said yes. It was a super relaxing happy day and much needed for us both. I wanted to come back and edit this because it was super...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    I forgot to mention Arbors forray into the couple...well he found out that it was thr husband who wanted him and the girl was only on board to find a partner for the husband...like hot bi dude-ing Arbor! Oh man I felt so awful for him. He's had such a bad run with poly experiences early on.
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    The butterfly diaries

    I'm sorry this happened to you and that you're still being affected by it. I'm glad you were able to find the silver lining. Your time, life and energy are never owed to anyone.
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    Living Truthfully Within

    Just bit the bullet, and told Jurian I can't do FWB, and I'd like to be friends. He's been talking to me via text since the last post here and gave more context but still no apology. But to be fair I didn't outright request one. However, if you say no kind things usually a person apologizes...
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    Confused and hurt

    I'm so sorry you're dealing in this. For what it's worth it pretty much is hard on all sides. As having been the hit bi unicorn 🦄 it can be enticing to think you can ride the escalator to the top without much effort, but in reality it is very exhausting to manage if you only like 1 person in...
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    Confused and hurt

    Your replies are always so thoughtful.
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    Living Truthfully Within

    Gone back to my introverted self of reading books. Did the 50 book challenge last year and ended up nearer 150 can't remember exact amount. Right now I'm reading Seveneves in a paperback form, and audio book of Red Rising when driving. Jurian got back with a half apology of not remembering the...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    Welp...I am having a down day about Jurian. Basically Jurian said something so shocking the other day that it shifted my entire perspective of him. I had hoped we could debate about it on his day off but instead he called off seeing me at all. The context was racism and his views of race and...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    South West love fest sadly didn't happen, it always feels like I plan for a trip and life happens instead! Arbor got called into training people at work to take over nights so he had to do extra training of his own before training someone else. Then my renters sink exploded water everywhere and...
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    Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

    Congratulations to all of you! :)
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    Living Truthfully Within

    Jurian is making me dinner tonight and yesterday we did exercise stuff together. We also had a really real talk about different things. It was much needed as we were having a few text misunderstandings and cleared those up. Arbor is still struggling a bit but not as much with Jurian just trying...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    Im seeing Jurian tomorrow. Fingers crossed its OK. We're going to work out, lol not with sexy time just with his exercise equipment and I want to lean into being there for him practically more. Maybe bring my art stuff over and sketch some plans for the Siding porch project he wants to do...
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    Living Truthfully Within

    So the overnight stay happened...and I'm in a weird place about it. It was very good on one hand, we cuddled and had sex and everything was good, BUT...the cat is out of the bag locally through not Arbor or Jurian or me but actually random people whispering things. And maybe a neighbor saw us...
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