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So, i found this interesting. For me... with my ex husband my love language was acts of service. He showered me with physical affection to the point i did not want to be touched at all. Also, considering that i am lesbian and would not admit it to anyone, his touch was a turn off. I just wanted...

36 and about to be 41

Well the divorce is final. Has been for about 3 weeks now. Still processing that. I never saw myself here, in this place, divorced and having to navigate co parenting with an ex. I still believe this was for the best. I have emotional swimgs, but who wouldn't. I have spent my entire adult life...

Life is well... life. Im trying to adjust and figure things out. There have been some awkward moments as Infinity and i navigate the waters of divorce and co-parenting. We are remaining somewhat friendly with each other. We arent attacking each other or fighting. Its not all roses but its not...

Infinity and I have decided to divorce. There has been a lit over the last few years and we decided this will be best. We agreed on all the terms and will speak to a lawyer tomorrow to try to start the process. We agree that we will work towards being friends with the ability to coparent our...

Today Infinity came to where i work. Felt like he was checking to be sure i was actually there, but he says he only came to bring me a drink. I dont know what to think. So much i do mees to think about though. He says i have 3 options 1) leave 2)give him another chance because he says he needs...

The last little while has been interesting. Infinity has had an almost nervous breakdown. He has still been back and forth with Mustang(they got back together to try a relationship a couple weeks after Galaxy and i started dating). It got to the point that Infinity didn't say choose, but i felt...

Well, i dont even know what to do right now. This has been my space to let my feelings and thoughts out, my place to get my thoughts and feelings together. Sometimes it helped me work through thoughts and feelings and move past them. Now, i just dont know what to do. I'm wondering now if i need...

Right now things are slowly getting better. We are taking things at a pace Infinity can handle. Its not exactly what i want, but its not bad. He's growing and learning. Hes trying and i cant complain about that. Galaxy and I are in the same place we have been with each other. We are falling...

Why does being poly end up being harder than it seems it should be? Last night while talking to Infinity he said that he loves my ability and capacity to love others, but that it scares him at the same time. Hes not mono but he isn't poly either. He's a swinger and wishes i could and would be...

Right now im very frustrated with Infinity. There is not a step i have taken that he hasn't been right under me for days. He's never had friends really and what few people you could say are friends hes not close to. Right now he is choosing to for go doing anything that does not directly involve...

Im honestly figuring all of that out. I thought i knew but some of it has changed with time and im figuring some things out again.

Galaxy did just that last night. She ended rhings with me so that Infinity and i can figure us out, again.

Galaxy ended things. No hard feelings, no arguing, just mutual love and understanding. She said she would wait on me and Infinity to work our stuff out.

Sent Infinity the link to the article on becoming secure on the more than two web site. Really hoping he reads it and that it helps.

I have never felt so much pain. I know what i wantand need, but i feel so selfish. What i want and need is causing those i love so much hurt. Why cant it all just be black and white? Why cant it all be simple? Why do i feel im being ripped apart at the seams? I feel like Infinity will never be...

Wow... in the space of 2 weeks so much has changed. Infinity has gone off the deep end and had all but a nervous breakdown because he is struggling to handle my relationship with Galaxy. I have been on an emotional roller coaster and the NRE has come to a crashing halt.

Talked to him this morning and yes honestly i was irritated. Told him i am done trying to make him ok, that this is me and i will not change that. Also told him he has to learn to be ok with me, all of me, or if he can't then the choice is his as to whether he stays with me or not, but i will...

You are right. Thank you.

And it was very short lived and he is right back wherw we were or worse. This is exhausting and now beginning to consume my conversations with Galaxy and her conversations with her husband. This is the same shit Infinity did with our quad and what caused me to feel backed into a corner to the...