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  1. Espoir

    Not really a blog

    Hey, are you open to discussing this or are you just venting? As a transmasc person surrounded by many other trans people in my life (older and younger, transmisogyny affected and transmisogyny exempt) I have some thoughts on the matter.
  2. Espoir

    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    On a completely different note, I was going through an old blog of mine because I'd just been lying in bed for like two days, bored and in pain, and was feeling nostalgic, and found this post: When I wrote this I was 20 years old and dating 4-5 people. (Four of which I am still friends with...
  3. Espoir

    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    Alicia's back tomorrow night and I'm a little bit nervous. I'm feeling better physically, although it's been a rough couple of days, but I finally had no fever or muscle pains today and was able to leave the bed, which was a plus. Just have this awful cough and a faint headache, but my mum came...
  4. Espoir

    New to this forum

    Hey Solace, just saw this comment! I've been reading your story, I cannot begin to imagine what you've gone through, thank you for sharing. I am glad to hear you are doing better, I have my ups and downs but despite very sporadic relapses it's a lot different than it used to be, and having...
  5. Espoir

    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    Hi everyone, it's been a while. Thanks for your comments re: safe(r) sex. I did feel a bit surprised that Alicia wouldn't take this sort of thing into consideration when we spoke about this, regarding her own health, but that's her prerogative I suppose. Today is the day that Alicia is going...
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    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    Turns out Alicia wasn't just feeling uncomfortable about the asking for an STI panel, she was feeling extremely angry because although she felt it came from a reasonable place, she felt that I was controlling her and Jess's relationship. We talked about it, she was feeling really resentful and...
  7. Espoir

    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    Thank you, Mags and Kevin. It's really good to know that it's okay to write so much, since doing so helps me process my thoughts and feelings. Typing stuff out isn't just an emotional outlet, but allows me to organise my ideas a little, as well. The worst-case scenario exercise is something...
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    New to this forum

    For sure, I'm extremely priviliged to have access to a super affordable therapist who works pro bono for an association for people with personality disorders, most private therapists where I live charge a minimum of 60 euros an hour which is absurd, and if you have a public healthcare therapist...
  9. Espoir

    New, from Scotland. trying to figure things out

    I'm new also, welcome! Cool to see someone from Scotland here, I'm Basque and Welsh which aren't actually that related to youse but I feel like we're cousins in a way.
  10. Espoir

    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    Hi, Thank you, everyone. I apologise for the length of the posts. I didn't realise I was going to over-explain myself so much, but it's true that I mostly made this account so I could have a space to process my feelings, other than speaking to friends, therapy and journalling, and I am mostly...
  11. Espoir

    First true poly experience and setbacks

    I am so sorry all of this happened. Particularly that last instance is just plain terrifying. Definitely block him on everything and do whatever you need to do in order to be safe. I agree with GG's suggestion about working on strengthening your own personal boundaries in general, but also with...
  12. Espoir

    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    Part 2, from poly-in-theory to poly-in-practice! During the past couple of years that we've been talking about this, I've been doing lots of (re)reading. I bought (and read) Polysecure like a year after it came out, I read a bunch of blogs, I checked out some podcasts (Making Polyamory Work...
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    (Re)opening up is hard - and that's okay, right?

    Hi Everyone, After a little less than a week of having registered onto the forum (and months of browsing) I wanted to talk a little bit about my current situation and ask for some advice/opinions. Once things have settled down a bit I think it would do me good to blog a little bit about how...
  14. Espoir

    New to this forum

    Thank you Kevin and Magdlyn for the welcome! And I truly appreciate the apologies about the binary gender thing for the registration, I understand it's not up to you as mods and I am grateful for the concern, hopefully the admins will be able to sort it out at some point. There's definitely a...
  15. Espoir

    New to this forum

    Thank you! I definitely think it is completely selfish and irresponsible to use any sort of diagnosis or personal trauma as a "get out of jail free" card. I believe that diagnoses are descriptive and not prescriptive. I am not interested in using my insecurities as a shield or a way of saying...
  16. Espoir

    New to this forum

    Hi everyone! Longtime lurker, first-time poster, as they say. I essentially made this account after a few months of thinking about it because I think it could help me with my current situation, which I'll get into detail at some point elsewhere (the Poly Relationships Corner) and also to have a...
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