Search results

Yea thats how I felt, I think I also havent had too many relationships in my life. At least like serious ones, the last big one I had was my first girlfriend when I was 18. 3yrs into it she had to leave the country and broke up with me and block me on social media till now which is almost 17yrs...

I guess it varies from person to person. But sometimes I cant pin point is the main cause of missing N, is it could be I miss someone that is new in my life that took interest in me after nearly a decade? Or is it because our friendship was so honest that we literally could tell each other...

Thank you so much for taking the time to write and reply Kevin. And you are right, it was not meant to be. NRE just kinda overflowed and took over. But then recently Ive been thinking, because Ive been with J for 11yrs now. I have not felt NRE for that long, was it cause it was someone new...

Wow its been a couple years, thought I revisit this thread. What happened in the end we cut ties with N, its was heartbreaking. I was crushed and this was in 2017. We moved away to a new city, start over. 2018 was rough, was really depressed, thought of killing myself that summer. It was a...

Sending love.

How long did that relationship last? And have you had similar relationships besides that one?

I'm 33 m. Mono my whole life married for 8yrs to my wife. I started a thread in here not too far down. Mono couple turn polish beginnings. We met this lady N 10months ago. We became friends and in a few short months we all became super close. I guess she had a crush on me since the beginning...

So this is just my speculation. Most poly relationships are both emotional and physical and maybe some are physical and no emotional connections especially outside their primary relationship. Do emotional poly relationships exist without the physical or sex sides of thing?

A few weeks have passed. I feel I owe so much gratitude to all the people that have replied and I feel I would like to update you on the current situation. So after that dark night, we continued on our trip without N. I was at lost for the first few days, I kept staring into space lost in...

I remember saying to her last night as she picked up my phone. "We wont be able to go back from this if you do this" And the next moments were few hours of hell on earth. I did tell her I was going to to cool it off with N mid July, and we did talked. I told her I had no idea of the Ethical...

Im at a lost of words right now. And I dont think I have anywhere or anyone to share this with. So last night we were suppose to meet up with N and get some stuff from her. And it will be the first time the 3 of us sat down since she cut us off. And for some reason I felt it was the end of...

Now thinking about it. When can you even trust Nre at all?

Me and J are meeting N tonight to get some stuff from her. There hasn't been much communication with her the last 3 weeks. Me and J have been going through some tough times. Grief, sadness, confusion, anger over the situation. Now I feel I got my head clearer and a out of Nre it feels. I...

Tonight I feel more annoyed almost angry at the situation and mostly myself and how much time this has taken away from my productivity. And the thing with N just feels like made up shit from the mind.

I havent dated in 8yrs. And even having someone intact in our relationship is making all weird. Good and bad ways.

I actually talked to a friend last night, and she mention my old blog that I've wrote some stuff that is related to infatuation years ago. I think partially I've been married for almost 8yrs I've forgotten about the experiences and feelings I had almost a decade ago. I probably will go look it...

Yes we were developing a right friendship the 3 of us (all of us mono) before the topic of poly came up. I started looking it up cause I was getting confuse why I wanted to spend so much time with N. It was very natural development of our friendships. I feel I might have rushed it but the...

Is it possible to experience NRE by yourself?

I think of J too. She has done nothing wrong. And I feel our marriage of 8yrs has been ups and down but the recent year has been the best year of our marriage. N, I think I guess deep NRE. Its like the moment I open my eyes shes there till the moment I go to sleep. And maybe its also cause she...

Also now I feel even when Im talking to any female friends online. I feel a little guilt and scared that they will turn out and evolve into something like this. Which is I know just my own anxiety projecting on it. But I cant help but to reflect.