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  1. kala83

    really exciting chnges that make me feel just giddy and happy!

    I do truly believe that is true, just for some reason I have just also meet and come across people in my life.....some times want to act a certain way toward me when I frist meet them an then I start to realize I am being taken advantage of by people as well. I don't know why this is...I try...
  2. kala83

    really exciting chnges that make me feel just giddy and happy!

    my primary boyfriend and I have been togethe for quite a while now about three years. we have been in mostly a mono/poly relationship but it seems like its geting to a point where it could become fully poly and there was not really any pressure put onto this point he seems genuinely interested...
  3. kala83

    Jealousy, Envy, Insecurity, etc.: Merged Threads, General Discussion

    I didn't think that the journal entry was phrased in a way that would be taken offensively, and her response to the entry was not so much that I had put it up, as it was that I had seen her a few days ago and that I could have brought up what I was venting about or confused by in the journal...
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    Jealousy, Envy, Insecurity, etc.: Merged Threads, General Discussion

    underlining jealousy issues I don't know for sure, but it seems like between my primary (male) partner and my local girlfriend, there is a lot of jealousy that ends up coming up, at least on her end towards my primary. I put up a journal entry not that long ago on Fetlife about how I have been...
  5. kala83

    starting over again

    The only thing I worry about is that he has cheated on partners before in the past which is why I want observe but like you said not push. Although I don't think the likely Hood of him cheating n me is likely we have known each other for long time like since we were both in high school. :) and...
  6. kala83

    starting over again

    Its odd cause normally this would make me jealous but I saw him on some dating sites earlier and both him and me where looking. Over his shoulder I don't think it will amount too much he seems content with me and just me. But try he fact he is showing even a like interest makes me happy I mean...
  7. kala83

    starting over again

    I am slowly starting to realize that the conflict we seem to have is not really about me being in love with my partners for him it's that he does want to physically share me. Which oddly I can accept this more then him being completely against me being bi or poly at all for a while I thought he...
  8. kala83

    happy

    I spent time with her and one of my other asexual partners this weekend and had a really good time. sometimes I feel like I reily too much on my romantic partners for companionship. Honestly. I really hesitate to be around other people or make new friendship when given the option of meeting...
  9. kala83

    starting over again

    it does for the most part seem like I am in a mono/poly relationship. he does not have any people he wants to date other then me. And is actively trying not to have other partners then me. which makes me feel to say the least kind of akward. I mean I have secondary partners that I have...
  10. kala83

    happy

    had a great date with one of my asexual partners last night, and her fiance went to see malificent and a local drag / burlesque show for her birthday and going out hopefully for karaoke with her tonight happy kitty is happy Like :):D
  11. kala83

    Managing STDs in an open relationship

    I can understand it being awkward for some but to a very good degree its something that needs to be asked about. its not something you want to just go un noticed. me and my primary are also fairly strict when it comes to STD safety. mostly on my part cause I know how it is when you do catch...
  12. kala83

    starting over again

    lol I almost told him flat out "well dear I am sure my other partners would not want to go into detail about such thing either" lol which is fairly true I think for most people in general
  13. kala83

    starting over again

    I think this is sort of why I am hestiant to go to a physical level with any other then my primary as of right now. Especially since both of us seem un sure as to how thing will end up going. the thing is he does want to know if I have sex with my partners and we wants to make sure I am...
  14. kala83

    starting over again

    so i guess what I am in right now could be defined as a monopoly relationship. My primary partner realizes that i am poly....not quite knowing just what all it is but he is willing to learn and be educated about it. he claims he wants to keep it seperate and let me have partners but not so much...
  15. kala83

    hating myself....and thinking I might have to be say no to poly

    just as far as an update to anyone that might care to read. all issues seems to have been set aside both friends seem to realize how pressured they were starting to make me feel, in that i might have possibly done something to my boyfriend that would have been hurtful to us. I really do feel...
  16. kala83

    hating myself....and thinking I might have to be say no to poly

    they both have had deep feelings for me quite a while no and only until I got to a point that that I can't give them those feeling as freely as I used to are they starting to realize how they really truly feel. nither are willing to say they feel in love with me but its true....they are trying...
  17. kala83

    hating myself....and thinking I might have to be say no to poly

    I think ironically it is harder for the other two people then it is for me.....its hurtful to us all....but I have to be fair to everyone involved. they ended up feeling bad cause I over at their place today and they ended up having sex, they wanted me to join in like I have done before in the...
  18. kala83

    hating myself....and thinking I might have to be say no to poly

    things have gotten lol interesting to say the least my bad habbits of trying to do really anything that might anciate bad habbits has gone entirely away cause it was causing harm to myself and to the people I care for. All of the people I have in my life that I care and love KNOW this is how I...
  19. kala83

    hating myself....and thinking I might have to be say no to poly

    even though its hard descision for me to make since I do in my heat have feelings for these people... I am making the sacrifice of being mono for now. I know that loving more then one person is just in my nature...but my issue is I take it to a physical sexual level fairly easily and I do that...
  20. kala83

    hating myself....and thinking I might have to be say no to poly

    I really feel like i just hate myself... I keep trying to make changes do better in my life and yes I am progressing but I keep slipping back into habits of things that maybe I should or should not be doing. I have struggled for a long time with a sex addiction. I am in a relationship right...
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