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I'm just so depressed and full of rage. I blame Henry for all this because no matter how much he was suffering, you'll never get me to believe that suicide isn't the most selfish and cruel thing you can do to people you claim to love. You get to leave your pain, but it doesn't go with you- you...

My mother died November 12, 2024.

My mother is now in respite care. She can't get herself dressed or do much of anything and her husband is too old to be able to care for her in that kind of physical way so she got a space in a care home. She says she is in a lot of pain and hoping they can help her with that. I'm too...

Really? I don't know anyone who would be okay being vetoed at any time by a meta. That sounds horrific. If you don't actually care about the person, no problem, because there are no strings. But as soon as you start developing feelings, then you get the axe? There's no winning in that situation...

My bio father was an alcoholic and he died when I was 9, but it still left scars. Sounds like it's been a rough year, icesong. What happened with Knight and Joan that she's moving out? Did I miss something?

I'm really struggling lately. Two days ago was both 5 months without Henry and also what will be my mother's last birthday. And we're hosting Thanksgiving tomorrow. I invited Henry's dad and his sister so they wouldn't have to be alone but I don't really feel like celebrating much of anything...

See that's the thing, Magdlyn, I've been signing up for every grief therapy thing I can find. It's not helping really. I'm in so much pain and the hits just keep coming. I honestly don't know if I'll find more people to connect with. Henry and I fit together so well. I don't really think I have...

This really just isn't my life. There must be some kind of mistake. My mom's doctor just gave her six months to live. So now I'll have no one. Who will I call if I need help? I don't have anyone anymore. I don't really have much of a community but definitely not people I trust and look up to...

I sit here and wonder what happened to my life. Because this is just NOT MY LIFE. I don't think I wanted too much. I didn't want to be rich (well, not beyond random fantasies) or famous or really much of anything other than quietly content. I wanted to be at least a reasonably good parent and...

Henry is dead. He killed himself. He was in a car accident two weeks ago and the ptsd wouldn't let him go. I just can't anymore. I will sell my soul to have him back omg he can't really be gone I need him.

Charlie has decided they are trans. I'm frustrated because I really truly think all of this makes no sense and that gender is stupid and full of stereotypes. I'm miserable at the idea that everything is going to be drama now. Everything is going to be harder. And I am so out of bandwidth for...

I'm genuinely starting to believe that gender is just stupid, honestly. I do not see how it can be in any way a positive thing that does not feed into stereotypes. I don't understand why we can't just all be people and recognize that humans are complicated and no one is any one thing without...

I didn't realize it has been so long since I've written! Life has just felt really heavy lately. Honestly, I don't even really feel like myself. I'm not sure I like the version of me I've been becoming lately, but the worst part is that I'm not sure I care enough to do anything about it. I'm...

I had a session with my counselor which helped to shake things out a bit in my head, and I've had a couple of conversations with Charlie as well. I am lucky that my counselor also has a good deal of experience with helping people on both sides of transitions as well as just exploring. She said...

Well, we had a pretty good holiday season. Henry's family isn't local, but Charles' family is, and my mom was well enough to have a Christmas gathering, so we had a houseful for Christmas. It was a comfortably poly holiday and that was great. I'm finding myself more and more unhappy lately...

Honestly, I think this is about perception more than anything else. Typically, women on dating sites have to sift through a ton of low quality messages/hits/whatever you want to call them, from people who may not even remotely resemble what she's looking for. That's stressful. Typically, men...

I don't know. I've never felt anything like that to be honest. I find physical attraction pretty low on my list of factors that make a person appealing, and I'm much more interested in what's inside the meat sack than anything to do with the rest of it. Just feeling super low tonight. It's...

I guess the trans thing makes more sense to me than the fluid thing. It's hard for me to understand the shifting, honestly. Because it does seem different than just wearing feminine clothes. They've both done that already and that doesn't make me bat an eye because it's no big deal. But when...

I think that's the part I don't understand though. Why is what you wear or do related to gender? I'm still the same ME no matter what im wearing or thinking or doing. None of those affect my me-ness. So the concept confuses me. Doesn't that simply reinforce the gender binary if clothes or...

Mags, I don't even really understand the whole nonbinary/genderfluid thing. I get that I don't have to understand because it's not about me, but it just doesn't make sense to my brain honestly. I think trans makes more sense to me because I can get the concept that you feel like you're the wrong...