Polyamory

I'm hesitant to date. My gf and I opened up a short while ago and I cant get myself out there. Shes been on a couple of dates and has a weekend trip coming up with someone she's been talking to for a few months. Whenever we go out she's quick and comfortable talking and flirting with people. I, on the other hand haven't been on any dates. I had a date planned that I easily canceled when I saw them post something about Chris Brown being baby daddy lol. I started talking to someone I matched with on bumble but then deleted the app on them. I had planned a day in LA to go thrifting and an all girl event later I was hoping to meet someone interesting at. I injured my leg and had to cancel. I pouted about it all weekend but I still won't reinstall bumble. I want to date, I get excited about it, but something is holding me back. I can feel it, I just dont know what it is.