Well, it was pretty clear I had to come off the pill, but I was on that to manage endo. So the HRT was partly to do that, and partly because I was having a pretty miserable time of it with regards to sleep (or lack thereof), pain, mood and executive function. I don't know how common it is to go onto HRT straight away, but as for me, I'm tracking pain and sleep daily on a spreadsheet so I have enough data for when I go back to my doc for review.
I'm fascinated by women's health care. You know I worked as a lactation specialist for 25+ years. I know much less about peri- and menopause though.General and joint pain is still an issue, but more at night than in the mornings now, and I'm not waking up with night sweats anymore.
Ah shit!I finally got to see the nutritionist, after having to cancel the first appointment. Also in the data gathering phase of that.
Puck just had chronic lyme confirmed.
hugs!Adam is out of town until late Friday night.
And I'm on antibiotics, because when it rains, it pours.
I hope that you're able to find balance again Evie. And stay nice and warm!I gave up that commitment that was killing me and honestly, I feel much better for it. Sure, it was 2 hours a week, but at a terrible time and I was bordering on a panic attack on Monday trying to get there. So I didn't go and emailed that I wouldn't go again. I do feel a little bad for it, but I was feeling worse trying to build it into my week.
So, that's a step back on the local life, but hey, at least I went out on Sunday. Winter is hard and I don't like being cold. I come home and light the fire, but as all international visitors always say about NZ, they've never been colder because most of our houses are at best retrofitted with insulation and not very good stuff at that. I need to eat hot food to warm up my feet, at least tonight I have the energy to do so in a min.
It's already the end of June. I remember when it was the end of January and I wished I could blink and it was December already. I think I'm going to end up feeling like that's actually what happened. But winter is my least favourite time of year and it's been a slog lately.
Adam and I were, at one time, expecting to get a flatmate (roommate) this week, but the guy chose to not move from his comfort zone in the South Island. So we still have the house to ourselves, and we rearranged that room to remove the bed and turn it into a drawing room instead. Except that it's too cold to be in there right now lol.
So, with the local life fail, I'm starting to think it's time to look inwards a bit more. Focus on my wairua (why-roo-ah; roll the r once). I have had chats with Adam lately about how I'm feeling disengaged with spirituality since I'm so focused on work. Maybe it's time to redress that.
The lady I met, I don't get to see her much. She's married as well. Seems I know far more married women these days who choose to date outside their marriage. I don't know if that's because I'm drawn to the "type" or if there actually are more of you. Possibly an economic indicator? A safety thing in these unsafe times? Anyhow, the time I have with her is rewarding, but it's far from a partnership right now. I don't know if it will ever be. I've decided to give it the rest of this year without overthinking. I'll reassess at that time. I don't want to turn 50 and still be waiting for a woman to leave her husband.