Polyamory

I am new to this, although I have had a good friend who was involved in a poly relationship. I have always been open-minded and have played with the idea, but never actually tried it.

I do know that my emotions can go both ways. I currently have love for more than one person. However, I am in a mono relationship. Recently, I have connected with a past friend/lover. He is supposed to be getting married in two months, and technically, you might say I am engaged, as well. YET we have found ourselves in a situation where there is an undeniable love between us.

We are exploring the idea of a poly relationship. At this point, it's not happening, since neither of our partners are aware of this situation. It's all been very confusing over the last few weeks. But I know I have love for them both, and I know he feels the same on his side.

I've spoken with several people, mostly those who believe in monogamy. They obviously can't see the possibilities and see it as a superficial type of thing. I don't necessarily agree.

What I do worry about is the jealousy. I've read how it is supposed to work. The mutual respect, along with the openness and ensuring everyone is getting what they need sounds beautiful, but is it really possible? I'm worried that if I even bring up the idea of a poly relationship to my fiance that it may damage us. I dont know if I'm ready for that. But I know I don't want to lose this other person in my life.

Ahhhh!! What to do? What to do? Any ideas, suggestions, advice support would be greatly appreciated.