Polyamory

Hi, I have been posting on the board lately, so I should also do self-introductions. I'm nks, a bi male, now in a monogamous marriage with a woman. Originally, I was uninterested in men and I thought I simply wanted a monogamous relationship.

Things however turned out to be more complicated than I thought...

I had to admit to myself years ago that I was polyamorous. I could love multiple people and could be happy for others when they were in love.

I had been in a throuple with two women. It was an amazing experience. We had to move across continents and we broke up. It was also nothing like described in the poly literature. It just happened slowly and we all liked what we had. It was quite difficult when it ended.

I then had an open relationship (requested by my gf). It again was nothing like it should be and there were a lot of mistakes. I learned some hard lessons. Dated many women, but most would want a mono relationship. My gf too met both women and men and later found her husband. We broke up but I was happy for her. I met my wife too.

Then, I transitioned back to a mono relationship. It was not always easy. My partner was interested in casusal sex and threesomes at first, but we never actually tried these. I have always liked hotwife/cuckold relationships, so I discussed it with my wife. She did not want to try. She however wanted to help me find a bf and sometimes expressed interest in having a throuple or a V (her, me as hinge, my bf). I liked the idea of two men and a woman, but she got worried that I might love sex so much that I become gay. I also could not find anyone good and questioned my bisexuality too. We kind of dropped the whole idea and just decided to work on a mono relationship.

I still have a poly identity too, so here I am.