Polyamory
Now to the more difficult part of all of this. Having posted an introduction (which I admit has left me feeling awkward), I am now at the part where I offer up my life and my concerns, and then frankly ask a few (okay more like a multitude of) questions.
Ahem. I have been married for nine years. Sadly, I am finding it difficult to quite discuss the nature of my marriage just yet, and I apologize. However, I have always found myself more comfortable around women, and to no little extent, I am a consummate flirt.
I have often described myself as "the only idealist/realist/romantic you will ever know." Yet the part that seems to get me in the most trouble is that I can not seem to keep my heart out of anything. All too easily, I find myself becoming emotionally attached people that become social and/or romantic.
To the best of my ability, to describe how I feel, I LOVE to LOVE. and I LOVE being LOVED. I desire intimacy. The closer that I feel to any one person, the more that desire becomes a want to express that sexually, to validate the feelings that are felt in the most intimate way possible.
I have come to learn, through many painful choices and mistakes, that ultimately it is through the power of honesty and open communication that true acceptance and intimacy can be fostered, that the indecisive guttering flame of love can be fanned into a roaring inferno.
However, I still have so much to learn and come to grips with. There remains so much yet that I am trying to understand.
I apologize for how erratic and inconcise this whole thread has turned out. I fear that it has become more of an emotional venting, a clearing of the mind and the heart.
Whoever had the patience to read this, thank you. Please know that I will get my act together and properly ask for help. But for now, I am just simply appreciative to have a possible audience.
Ahem. I have been married for nine years. Sadly, I am finding it difficult to quite discuss the nature of my marriage just yet, and I apologize. However, I have always found myself more comfortable around women, and to no little extent, I am a consummate flirt.
I have often described myself as "the only idealist/realist/romantic you will ever know." Yet the part that seems to get me in the most trouble is that I can not seem to keep my heart out of anything. All too easily, I find myself becoming emotionally attached people that become social and/or romantic.
To the best of my ability, to describe how I feel, I LOVE to LOVE. and I LOVE being LOVED. I desire intimacy. The closer that I feel to any one person, the more that desire becomes a want to express that sexually, to validate the feelings that are felt in the most intimate way possible.
I have come to learn, through many painful choices and mistakes, that ultimately it is through the power of honesty and open communication that true acceptance and intimacy can be fostered, that the indecisive guttering flame of love can be fanned into a roaring inferno.
However, I still have so much to learn and come to grips with. There remains so much yet that I am trying to understand.
I apologize for how erratic and inconcise this whole thread has turned out. I fear that it has become more of an emotional venting, a clearing of the mind and the heart.
Whoever had the patience to read this, thank you. Please know that I will get my act together and properly ask for help. But for now, I am just simply appreciative to have a possible audience.