I am sitting here listening to big band music from the 20s and 30s while zapping spam on the forum. The music is so much fun to listen to. Been feeling a bit blue the past few days. Just thinking of all the "almost lovers" in my life - there seems to be a certain point in the very beginning that I get to with some guys, and then we go nowhere. Maybe a makeout session, or some groping, but nothing more. Weeks pass between contact. There are a few I converse with online that I haven't gotten up the courage to meet yet. I don't know what's wrong with me, except for feeling fat and unattractive, and hopeless relationship-wise. Oh, is that all? Shit.