Polyamory
So interesting side bar thoughts from my continued journy. 25 years of being open and I am still working on myself.
I know this next set of thoughts is rooted in toxic masculinity. I have been doing a lot of work, therapy, poly secure, reading on attachment styles and just generally trying to heal myself. This is in an effort to better myself for my partners and future partners. Really just want to calm my brain.
BUT.. my toxic lizard brain is telling me this work is devaluing myself for her. She is seeing me in a clinical way instead of a strong person (which I was until 3 months ago). This weakness, while she is supporting me now, has devalued my long term interest.
Does anyone else struggle with admitting the need for help and at the same time feeling like it devalues yourself? Or is it all sunshine and rainbows
I know this next set of thoughts is rooted in toxic masculinity. I have been doing a lot of work, therapy, poly secure, reading on attachment styles and just generally trying to heal myself. This is in an effort to better myself for my partners and future partners. Really just want to calm my brain.
BUT.. my toxic lizard brain is telling me this work is devaluing myself for her. She is seeing me in a clinical way instead of a strong person (which I was until 3 months ago). This weakness, while she is supporting me now, has devalued my long term interest.
Does anyone else struggle with admitting the need for help and at the same time feeling like it devalues yourself? Or is it all sunshine and rainbows