Over the years my ideal relationship has been an MFM or MMF with bisexual guys who are in a relationship with each other too. I’ve been told that it’s not really realistic and I’ve kind of felt hopeless as I had no idea of where to go to search for such a thing. I met two guys both online and felt like I was kind of dating both of them but wasn’t apparently and they were both poly. We all agreed that we wanted a poly relationship and they never met each other but again I felt like I was kind of in a relationship or starting relationship with both of them and it felt nice but then my jealousy got the best of me when I would hear them talk about other women or invite me on the phone while they talked to other women.
When I first felt the idea years and years ago of a poly relationship and then it grew more I never thought about it being open with other women. Recently my desire to be in a relationship with 2 guys has grown to be a desire that wants more than two guys and I have this whole little fantasy about how it would all work out and how I want the dynamics to be. I’ve had a lot of thought process into the kind of relationships that I want and as I continue to try to search for just one guy to wanna date me I keep on meeting guys who sparked the thought process in my mind about the kind of poly relationship that I want. Fine-tuning what it is I exactly desire.
I met a guy who was completely straight and said that he would love the idea of me being with other guys and himself. That he would love the idea of himself and other guys just focusing on me and me being the only woman. I didn’t think that was possible because I felt selfish to exclude my partners from wanting to be with other women but I loved that idea and that’s exactly what I wanted. I met another guy that I felt similar about it. So it just reinforces this wanting me and desire that this could be possible. Both completely stop talking to me which is nothing new but it reinforced the fact that this is what I wanted and maybe I don’t have to feel so selfish about it.
I keep on feeling quite selfish when I think about wanting to be the only woman in a relationship with two and hopefully more guys but I also know that my insecurities and with my past of how often I have been replaced over and over and over again by other women my jealousy would get the best of me. I don’t like using this term because it sounds negative but I am high maintenance and I would need my relationships to be there for me like on a daily basis. Even if it is just a few text of the day I want to be surrounded by that love constantly. So I’m writing on this great community because I don’t know what to call the type of relationship it as I desire.
What kind of relationship is it actually considered when you are a woman among men and even though it is a poly relationship where the guys are intimate with each other (or can be) but you are the only woman?
When I first felt the idea years and years ago of a poly relationship and then it grew more I never thought about it being open with other women. Recently my desire to be in a relationship with 2 guys has grown to be a desire that wants more than two guys and I have this whole little fantasy about how it would all work out and how I want the dynamics to be. I’ve had a lot of thought process into the kind of relationships that I want and as I continue to try to search for just one guy to wanna date me I keep on meeting guys who sparked the thought process in my mind about the kind of poly relationship that I want. Fine-tuning what it is I exactly desire.
I met a guy who was completely straight and said that he would love the idea of me being with other guys and himself. That he would love the idea of himself and other guys just focusing on me and me being the only woman. I didn’t think that was possible because I felt selfish to exclude my partners from wanting to be with other women but I loved that idea and that’s exactly what I wanted. I met another guy that I felt similar about it. So it just reinforces this wanting me and desire that this could be possible. Both completely stop talking to me which is nothing new but it reinforced the fact that this is what I wanted and maybe I don’t have to feel so selfish about it.
I keep on feeling quite selfish when I think about wanting to be the only woman in a relationship with two and hopefully more guys but I also know that my insecurities and with my past of how often I have been replaced over and over and over again by other women my jealousy would get the best of me. I don’t like using this term because it sounds negative but I am high maintenance and I would need my relationships to be there for me like on a daily basis. Even if it is just a few text of the day I want to be surrounded by that love constantly. So I’m writing on this great community because I don’t know what to call the type of relationship it as I desire.
What kind of relationship is it actually considered when you are a woman among men and even though it is a poly relationship where the guys are intimate with each other (or can be) but you are the only woman?