Recent content by Darkeztdoll

I really appreciate all of this advice. Thank you.

It' basically been me saying " I love you and I want to be with you, but I need time to heal from recent mishaps, before I can start to consider change. He says" I love you and I want to be with you but I need for us to start changing and I need it now." Oh I didn't see he rest of it on my...

Wow, thank you so much Kevin T. That was... An incredibly objective response. I really appreciate it. Seriously, very helpful!

Yes, your right. "Introverted" sounds better.

And as far as me describing myself as anti-social. I'm just trying to put this in perspective. I like a very few select group of people. I'm a homebody, I keep to myself. I like my privacy-shorthand translates to kind of anti-social. I recently got a job on the weekends at a ren fair to kind of...

Yeah, it is kind of odd. Lol. I just believe if you love somebody you accept them as they are. Even if that means accepting that they love other people. I am also very independent and I think he deserves that same independence. I just want us to be free to enjoy our lives and a big part of that...

Yeah, I can see that. Being left out has kind of been my thing. But neither of us are happy with that arrangement. Which is why my friends are insisting I find "anotha lova". But, I move slow in matters of the heart. It's very uncommon for me to meet people I um, get, on most levels, especially...

Yeah, figures... I can't escape them...they are everywhere...

That's true. I have felt left out. I definitely want to be present during these things. So something has got to give for both of us.

@ inyourendo Yeah, I didn't love the really looonnnggg patronizing letter bit and if I am stubborn, he is a mule. We both are very used to getting our ways. I agree, it's an awkward to put it mildly, position, we have manuevered ourselves into. I feel backed onto the edge of a cliff, and I guess...

Ok, that is all fair. All very fair, good advice. It took us taking a break for me to even consider change. Now, why I act the way I do and changing the way I react to things, is going to be hard. Control issues, I guess, which is part of my job, or issues created by my job involving control...

My monogamous friends seem to think it's as simple as adding another boyfriend to occupy my time. Which would be nice, but, I just haven't met anyone recently I hit it off with. I can't just abra Kadabra a boy out of thin air.

At this time yes. He is my only relationship. I have dated other people in the past but, am not currently.

And I don't think he wants out. He wants change. Change I am willing to give him, I'm stubborn, so it's coming slow. I just, I don't know, wanted to run this whole thing by more experienced people.

And he tells me about her. He really just wants us all at the same functions. I have really done my best to play fair. I tried to bow out gracefully from the super bowl party but, he kind of got pushy about it. Like really pushing me to go...