Yeah, it's egoistic and while I would love to be shared, I have an issue with sharing others and it's not right! Shame! Shame! Shame!
Actually, identifying the problem means that you are halfway to resolving it!
As I shared before I really see it as a polygamy family, maybe for a while. Maybe I am a bit egoistic of wanting to have a couple of men, who will care for me, love me, and be my only, and I'll be theirs.
I take time to think about my "passive" polyamory!
My fiance told me about my "threesome fantasies", that I just want to be the center of attention and to feel caressed, by two men. But I don't think it's all that! 1/3