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    All Consuming Thoughts

    It started on accident. We started spending a lot of time with Coun and before I knew it, I found that I loved him. I never really meant to go in this direction. Hubby could tell we really cared for each other and brought it up last winter and it has just been slowly progressing into me wanting...
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    All Consuming Thoughts

    We would like a joint gf but I really have no idea! lol I just started this thread because I felt like I was going crazy and really needed someone detached from the situation to give me their perspective. I haven't thought quite a bit of this through. I'm confused too. I don't know. Oh it...
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    All Consuming Thoughts

    This is very true and it helps to hear it from someone else. Helps me calm down a bit to read it and really put it into a better perspective. I guess I just got caught up. Forcing a good relationship/friendship/click is not something I want to do so I better just take a breath. We are so very...
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    All Consuming Thoughts

    This isn't what I mean. I guess it kind of sounds like that...He does not want entertaining but companionship. Equal parts to the equation if that makes any sense? It makes sense to me. We/He - not looking to "use" anyone. Maybe I am no good at explaining myself but I meant to imply neither.
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    All Consuming Thoughts

    Lately as things have been developing for me and Hubby we have been talking about options and things about adding a woman into the equation I feel like it is all I can think about. His condition to me taking things further with Coun is that he have someone he can spend the time with while I am...
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    It happened. Feeling numb

    I agree and I always say that things happen for a reason...whether or not we can see the reason right off. I hope that this ending just opens you up to a whole new range of possible beginnings and that you will find happiness beyond what you thought possible. Keep your head up :) Wishing you...
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    I thought I was all Alone...

    So did I and what a relief to find out we are not alone! I'm really new here so I don't have a whole lot of advice, especially when it comes to very religious families, but I am glad you found us. Everyone I have talked to here has been very friendly and helpful. Good luck to you on your journey...
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    I don't want to hurt you but...(A Letter to a Non-Poly Lover)

    I think the reason I so liked the letter is because it summed up a lot of feelings I was having about it in a way I couldn't express on my own or find the words for. Communication is key, even within yourself and I felt like this helped me see inside myself a little bit. Also just knowing that I...
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    I don't want to hurt you but...(A Letter to a Non-Poly Lover)

    This is one of the first articles I read that really helped me sort out everything in my head when I discovered the word Polyamorous. It has helped me start to accept myself the way I am instead of try and hide it or try and make it go away. This is just who I am. I hope that if there is anyone...
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    not broken?

    Thanks for the advice! I will definitely do that to avoid future confusion. Just got tired of writing best friend out each time and didn't know what else to use lol This is all so new! I am still trying to wrap my head around so much information all at once and honestly, it is a bit...
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    not broken?

    I suppose I should clarify. By bf I mean best friend(of husband) and not boyfriend. I really am not one to post about my problems either and this was actually really hard for me to do but I felt I needed to reach out because I was feeling so lost. I am really glad I found this forum though...
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    not broken?

    Thank you to all three of you! It really means a lot to hear that I'm not broken. Jane QSmythe I think you are definitely right about our social programming and my being wounded for having thought that I was broken for so long. I never knew that people could love more than one person and have...
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    not broken?

    Hi everyone. So, just until recently, I was convinced there was something wrong with me. I honestly believed I was broken. Not just in the normal sense of the word as in I don't function right but also in the sense that maybe, if reincarnation is real, that in a past life my soul had been...
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