firelover101

I am a veteran with 15 years of service in the U.S. Army and civil service. I am retired and disabled. I have been married for 16 years to my wife Kelly. We have four kids and three grandkids. I have lived my entire life as a straight monogamous male. My wife has informed me that she is polyamoras and wants to live this lifestyle. At first I was extremely confused and hurt but I don't want to be divorced and I am slowly opening myself up to the idea. I am 56 years old and my wife is also 56 years old. I want to learn as much as I can about this lifestyle so I can understand what my wife wants and support her. I am warming up to the idea but not sure if I am cut out for living this lifestyle. The more information I can get will help me in my journey to understand and accept what my wife desires. I am not saying that I am closed to the idea but I am scared and I am worried about loosing my wife that I have loved and been with for 16 years. I hope that with some information and personal growth that maybe I will be able to accept this and be a part of it with her. I am confused hurt and scared right now. If anyone can help me understand and learn about this lifestyle I would be greatly appreciated David