Recent content by genebean

my dog is singing along to my crying. I ended it. It fucking hurts, really fucking badly. I love him, I doubt l'll ever stop loving him but I can't do it anymore. I can't expect him to understand my betrayal and how betrayed I felt by situations in the past. We haven't moved forward from any of...

He is one and the same. I feel its worth atleast some effort, though its difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I care so very much for him but I sometimes feel like he would rather not have to consider a significant other. He vehemently denies that this is the case and says that...

He cheated and lied..it hurt. I am having trouble letting it go, it keeps popping up in conversation and turning a conversation into a fight. I am angry and hurt and I can honestly say that I hate the female that participated. I have never wanted to hit someone over the head with a frying pan...

Communication is definitely a must, seems silly that we didn't outline things all that well to begin with. I think we all just assumed we'd roll with the punches and now we're getting our asses kicked for that erroneous assumption. The biggest miscommunication we are facing currently is that...

So some how, we managed to find ourselves a unicorn. She is beautiful, funny, and charismatic. Everything we were looking for really. It is exciting but also scary so I have been very careful to let her know that I am very much willing to hear any concerns she might have. Even still, when she...

I see. That makes sense, but what I mean to say with my question is that some people (a good portion of the population I'd say) just cannot be okay with the person they are committed to being involved with others..i understand that there are a few not so valid reasons for this (societal...

:) happy to help. *hugs* heres hoping we both find our answers.

Hey all, I am having a really tough time with all of this and really confused about my feelings on the matter...let me start off by saying that polyamory scares and intrigues me, it's something that is different and exciting and new but also something that means confronting long since...

I too struggle with low self esteem and I absolutely love everyone' comments on the matter. Thanks for posting!

ditto.

the cross-referancing is understandable but what I'm asking is for people to understand that each situation is seen through an individuals perspective and to not judge my posts by polypenguin's and vice versa. I don't want to sound un-appreciative here but it's something both him and I have felt.

I appreciate the advice. I realize I'm not in the best of all places mentally but it is improving. I feel that there is a fair amount of for lack of a better term "side choosing" when there is knowledge of the other person's posts on here, I ask everyone to analyze each situation separately...

will do. I typed it up on my phone so it doesn't allow for paragraph breaks. When I get to a computer I will edit.

I realize that if he leaves me, life goes on and I will find another person to be with. The problem lies in finding another him, which isn't possible. I feel like I am dating two separate people, one a caring and loving person who I connect with on a fundamental level and another the person who...

I am angry, I am hurt, I am insecure, I am lost. But I am also powerful, loving, strong, affectionate and I will be there for people to a fault. I have not had the best of all lives thus far and it's left me a little worse for the ware, feeling above all things unworthy and it is terribly...