Recent content by Inthedark

The VA Spent the day at the VA yesterday getting my medical evaluation done. After talking to a neurologist and having my general medical exam, I realized that when my entire medical history is laid out all at once, I'm amazed that I am still able to function! Things at home are stable. The...

Jobs, Jobs, Jobs! I am excited! Today was the day that I was supposed to get off my butt and start looking for a job. Vacation is over. Today was supposed to be the day that my task was going to be sending out resumes and applications. Well, that isn't happening, because I started yesterday...

So I do have a diagnosed depressive condition and I am on medication for it. Some days, the meds don't work. That happened yesterday. In conjunction with that, I haven't been sleeping well. I don't sleep well without Megan. After I recognized that I was down, I also realized that I was damn...

Just their existence is aggravating me right now! LOL. I am having a bad day today. I have noticed that since my return from Iraq in 2009, sometimes I just have down days where I am just so weary and sad. I think they call it depression! I am feeling like that today. Because I have a history of...

Hey wow! What a response! LOL. I should change the name of this thread from Lack of attention to Lots of attention! Thanks to everyone for the responses. So, a couple of things I'd like to point out. I think I am getting emotionally numb. There are so many things that I used to get upset or...

Still Alive! Hi all! Well, I've been away for a bit but I wanted to let everyone know that I'm still alive and kicking. It has been a challenging couple of weeks but worth it, for the most part. I have started my retirement leave and am trying to get some much needed relaxation time in. I got...

Forcing my hand would be if she decides to leave or if she asks/tells me to leave. Two weeks ago she said that her plan was to pay off the bills and then get a divorce. But we haven't discussed it further. I don't know if she still feels this way or not. She is great at confusing me. So really...

You are 100% correct, of course! However, you know me well enough by now to realize that my first reaction in any bad situation is to blame myself. My default setting seems to be "Everything is my fault," and "I must fix every problem right this second." Yes, nothing has changed. I tend to try...

HPD and/or NPD I was reading another thread in which GalaGirl mentioned that a person seemed to be histrionic. I had never heard of this, so I followed the link she provided. Reading through the article, I thought I was reading a psychological profile of my wife! The Histrionic Personality...

No, I didn't. But I rose to the occasion! I have worked in the medical field for 20 years and I relish the opportunity to take care of people. Even if my wife is acting the way she has been, I still do my best to care for her. She is fine now. They finally did the test that was needed, and about...

Well, hell It's been a rough few days. At 2:30 AM on Thursday my wife woke up with severe abdominal pains. We were able to get her back to sleep, but by noon that day, the pain was back, so we went to the ER. 10 1/2 hours later we came home thinking she had some sort of gall bladder problem...

I'm Tired I'm tired. I'm weary. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of planning. I have no energy anymore. I'm in physical pain. So, I think I'm going to take a little break for a while and try to relax.

So, I just got an offer from my best friend to come live with him in New Mexico. He has a lot of connections and can help me find a job and he said I could have a room rent free fro as long as I want. He even said that he has room for my kids. I got a little Army stuff left to do but I am...

So, there have been some developments in the wife/dom situation. Looks like that fantasy might be coming to an end. I don't know if I shared this or not, but I started to notice some small fractures last week. Basically, she didn't keep up the usual routine. Yesterday, she received a task for...

Well, the wife got to Houston safe and sound, so that means one day without worry or stress. I hope she has a good time. I also hope that this trip, and the way that I have been open and supportive of it, despite my worries, helps her to realize who is really important in her life. The guy...