JEnigmagariousDR

I'm a single father, officially divorced 2 weeks ago after over a year of separation and zero dating.

My focus is on getting my single ship on a new course and making sure I'm showing up for myself so I have all the energy and motivation I need to show up for my son.

I'm here because I was diagnosed with Asperger's. I started unmasking and began understanding that I may be cis presenting and highly masculine, but I'm also internally agender or autigender and sexually I am deeply and spiritually sexual person.

Very few people in this world are similar enough to me to be someone I could partner with and marrying for practical and social pressure reasons sure taught me that lesson hard.

Before marriage though, sex was always something that I deeply enjoyed and engaged in and it always seemed ridiculous to me that you should only feel a magnetic pull to one person. I'm here because fir essentially my entire marriage, sex was treated as a unwelcome demand that a man must push for and that completely destroyed my ability to live the process.

Sex isn't work. Its literally a process that allows you to get literally inside or around another person's body with your own and release such a powerful flood of chemicals in your brain that we still haven't found a way to make a drug that can replace it.

I've learned through repairing my relationship with my body and with sex that men can experience a more elongated waves of orgasm, and even squirt and that the first orgasm and refractory period is almost entirely psychosomatic in that the mind and imagination are ultimately calling the shots and sending the signals. I have had sex for hours with short breaks with women far older and more experienced than I was and all but a few called me a sex God because of the experience. I'm old enough to not care what that should mean for my ego because sex is supposed to be the most incredible experience possible. If it wasn't, we would have argued our way to extinction millenia ago.

I want to train my entire body to be a whole, erogenous organism, and I not chasing oxytocin to rushed attachment anymore. I'm looking for women and groups who know that not even the most realistic porn could compare to the real thing, but that nothing that adds arousal and excitement and pleasure can be called bad if it enhances the experience.

Right now I'm almost exclusively interested in experiencing for myself whether my intuition was right that my last relationship was full of great sex by traditional standards, but never close to the full experience it could be. I'm still physically a man and highly masculine, but I'm not content using just those descriptors to define how I express my sexuality. I'm the kinkiest person I know and I couldn't care less what a partners motivation for their kinks are so long as it's consensual, we're both fully engaged, and the answer to what else can we try is "whatever we can imagine or discover that feels like a great idea".