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I wished to come back and make an update. Monogamy proved impossible for me. My depression increased, my physical self harm behaviors increased. I felt like I was lost and drowning. I finally told DH what I was feeling about the guy from OKC. He made the decision to allow me a very...

I very much appreciate all the advice and insight in the replies to my question. It has inspired a very interesting thought. While I hate not having polyamory/being able to love/sex/connect with others, I do not hate the idea of such intense restrictions in general. I wonder if my desire to...

KC43: Thank you for clarifying the terminology. The situations are painful to me for both reasons. I tend to want to closely connect with lots of people, and not being allowed saddens me. I also do not feel up to explaining that things I was previously allowed are no longer allowed, especially...

opalescent: I should also clarify I believe we've exhausted a number of options for going slowly; for years I was only allowed to date women, and then men, but no sex with men, until actually after I broke up with the most recent boyfriend (which was a factor in that breakup). He's always met...

Marcus: that was insightful. thank you. Sparklepop: It is a 24/7 Master/slave relationship. I thought specifying that might scare/confuse people as there are many vanilla people on this board. No, I'm not "okay" with the specific items; permission and being banned. But as you said, I agreed to...

I have a weird question. I'm polyamorous. Always have been, but didn't know what it was at first. Married a Catholic man pretty young under somewhat false pretenses; I didn't know there were other relationship options, so I tried to be a good wife, be what he wanted, ignore my leanings...