There's a lot of emotional energy caught up in this statement, and it may really be clouding your judgement. It might be a good idea to look at it very carefully.
"No relationship will ever be as fulfilling..." But the relationship is not fulfilling and you're tied up into knots because you...
It seems to me that you've recently had an absolutely wonderful time with this man. Something that perhaps your soul has been craving for many years. That, it seems to me, is goodness for the universe.
And yet you also seem to indicate that you have this idea that you "shouldn't" feel so bad...
I have been following this thread carefully because I am in a similar situation to the OP's.
GalaGirl's post yesterday was very, very helpful. She has done an excellent job of using the OP's actual words, placing them in a consistent timeline, and pulling out the items that are in the OP's...