Recent content by Masquerade78

Ok, maybe I need to rehearse the things I need to say, but we've been through it many times and it's unlikely he will change :/

Waaaaaaaaa if you look at my 'so much love to give, it doesn't fit into one pot' threadon the new to polyamory link, you'll see I'm very confused right now :-S

I think I love my husband dearly. I always want him in my life. But I want someone to treat me the way I deserve to be treated. Life is just too damn short. I think maybe this isn't the place for me and I just need to sort my head out. Thank you for your help and support.

I totally agree, NYCindie. I'm confuzzled and analysing everything. Don't want to hurt anyone and just desperately trying to understand my own motives.

Are you still with your wife, if you don't mind me asking? What if I'm looking for someone else, to tolerate the things in my marriage I'm not happy with? Being happy with the addition of someone else too, as escapism? I want to love them both, but I think it may be for the wrong reasons.

I would add that I don't actually wish to be 'pimped out' by my husband!

What I'm currently concerned about is that I'm using my relationship with my friend as escapism, as a band-aid to make the strains of daily life bearable. My husband knows that I love him, not as father or husband, but as a person. I'm on anti-depressants because life is hard. I'm worried that...

I will check them out. I think alarm bells are ringing now though, as I don't want it to be turned around and used against me.

I also need to remember what my husband enjoys and finds pleasure from, and find a happy medium.

"If I were in love, I would rather see my partner loved by someone else and treated with respect and tenderness, and acknowledged as the beautiful human being I know they are, rather than being used as a disposable, convenient fuck toy." Thank you, NYCindie. I think he does acknowledge this...

God, this is all so encouraging. Daily, I'm re-finding myself, questioning myself, being so self-aware and yet so aware of the feelings involved in this. PixieChick, I hope that it works out for you too. Let's keep talking, if you're happy to. At the end of the day, the beginning of the day...

Paths Once again, thank you - yes I'm a voyeur in your conversation, welcoming both the male perspective, but also the intensity of your feelings. This is all so positive, but also the fact that you openly acknowledge that there are peaks and troughs that just form the make-up of the whole...

I think the key thing is that Percy and I wanted different things from this, from the outset. We are communicating openly and honestly and I am totally recognising his feelings. He loves me so much and wants me to be happy, so he is not asking me to stop. I just need to be fully aware of how I...

Intro: I'm 33, F, married for almost 8 years, with two beautiful daughters. How it evolved: I will just jump straight in and explain that after several years of enjoying online fun and flirting, my husband Percy realised his cuckold fantasies. He loved the thought of me being pleasured by...

Thank you Reading that made me well up, because it renews my faith that it can work. I'm at the outset of something right now and there are several paths that we can take but what I want is what you describe and I just hope hope hope it could work. Thank you x