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I misunderstood the whole situation. I had some walls up and wasn't respecting her feelings for me. She told me how she felt from the beginning but I didn't get it. I do now. I am loved. We've been back together two months now.

Peaceful Valley is my nickname. It's a variation of my given name and I took it on when I was quite young. I like to think I have some inner peace gained from the tens of thousands of miles I've traveled, from solitude at the hot springs, from meeting the Dalai Lama, and from the patience I...

Envy. My girlfriend's husband has it. She and I have a spark and they don't. I have everything with her that he always wanted. He's envious and falling apart about it. What are we supposed to do?

I'm a "secondary" and after reading all this, find that I suffer a dilemma that has so far been unmentioned. Who is primary and who is secondary? My girlfriend lives with her husband and they've been married twenty years. They have children together, work at the same company, and share many...

As much as I would tend to be the martyr in a situation like this, I have to agree. Her charge of drama does have some validity but I think that given the strong feelings we had for each other, that my reactions were understandable. (this thread is a true record) I don't want to guess at her...

The final word is that I created too much drama and she hates me for it.

All I want is you but I don't want you to come back. We really loved. We were all the way there with hearts wide open and now I can't bear the thought of just having a part of you. You could make it all better. Hold me in your arms and let my tears wash it all away. Perhaps you'd shed a tear...

I'm pretty sure I jumped the gun, that she is simply going through an introspective phase and doesn't know how to communicate about it. It's fucked up. I talked to her husband. I didn't jump the gun on my emotions though. What bothers me is legitimate. I could have just waited, the willing sex...

Or it could just be Mercury retrograde and everything will work out when the planet goes direct this weekend. I'm still trying to engage her but receiving nothing but evasive replies.

No, it's not that much of a mystery to me. I understand her. Kevin. I cried for at least four hours today. My eyes are sore. Every tear was love. I'm not sad so to speak. It's that every tear makes me realize how much I love her and I know that I love her enough to cry for days. You saw what we...

I'm all screwed up about this. I should know better. A is a Gemini. So was my first wife. They look alike too. My first wife left me while I was out of town and made everyone keep silent about where she went. She was trying to make a clean break. That same week my sister died of Cancer. I...

That's me writing to A. She hasn't told me anything but she obviously decided to pull back. I would be fine with that if she could have told me but just cutting me off without any explanation. I'm not into that game. You know how much I love her. Too much. Still no reply. Someday she'll talk to...

This might be the last entry. It's been fun. "I pretty much got the message the last time I saw you. When you told me that you were going off the pill after the trip. I can read between your lines. I know you really well. Everything changed after I went out with J that night. I don't know if it...

Another month is almost past and our adventure proceeds. I hardly know where to begin. Probably where I left off :) No more overnights yet. A is on a solo vacation in a tropical paradise and the two or three weeks before she left were extremely busy for her as she had to bank hours at work and...

Good points and questions. Thank you for commenting. Everything proceeding apace here with quite a few changes. The big one is that I introduced J to a woman and they are becoming good friends. I hooked them up for several reasons. One was that he was feeling a lot of insecurity about A's...