Recent content by PolyRed

Well, it's been over a year and a half since I last posted. Lots of things have changed in my life and I've had some more forays into the poly world. I dated a lovely man (M2) for 9 months and grew a lot through that experience after M, and it taught me a lot about what I do and don't want in a...

M and I... ugh. I just don't know what to do any more. It is so confusing I've pretty much just thrown my hands up. I love him, but this back and forth hurts. I know I mean something to him. He wouldn't be so willing to spend all that time with me... he wouldn't have ever kissed me, comforted me...

I feel the need to hash out some feelings here too regarding an ex and how they relate to M. I dated X for a short two months last year while M and I were in the awkward barely talking stage, but the feelings for X were incredibly strong. We both fell head over heels. The attraction was instant...

So yeah... saw M at work. I was a little annoyed with him Sunday night and barely talked to him because he'd ignored my text the day before. I barely said two words to him and told him to just leave the present in my locker. I was all ready to move on from him. Kind of tired of this back and...

Two weeks later and M and I still haven't really had a deep talk. We both have been working, with very little time off, and this week he had a scheduled visit to see his parents, which live in another state and he visits frequently to take care of them. We have seen each other at work a bunch...

Things are better today, although I've felt like a raw nerve exposed most of the day today. Yesterday I suggested M and I hang out and do something fun- partly to get past any awkwardness we might have with each other after this week's happenings, partly to have the chance to talk more. I then...

Last night and today have been pretty freaking awful and gut-wrenching. M and I had a wonderful time out on our date... and ended up back at his apartment, talking and drinking til 3:30 a.m. I was too drunk to drive home, so I stayed the night. We had been touchy feely throughout the prior two...

(Normal Blog post) M and I are having our first ever evening date tonight. In itself, not a big deal considering we spend half the day together when we do get together during the day, but I feel like it signifies a new stage of our relationship. We've been going out, spending time together...

---Continued She sat in her car for a couple of minutes, feeling a mixture of confusion, elation, and unease about what had just happened. She had just crossed the line with the man she had considered a mentor, who had given her countless recommendations, advice, and was also her co-worker. And...

Thanks MsJulles! :) I'm glad someone appreciates my silly ramblings. LOL. Update: M works Superbowl Sunday, as do I... so that isn't going to happen. And sadly, Hubby and M meeting won't happen before then either. So I'll likely be spending a lot of time at home alone that first week in...

I've been married for ten years to my hubby. A couple of years ago we started kicking around the idea of an open relationship/polyamory. When I changed careers to the medical field and ended up forming a deep relationship with a doctor/co-worker/mentor - M (my current emotional secondary), we...

Normal Blog Post: Sooo... It seems that my husband and my secondary (M), are finally going to be meeting in the next couple of weeks. Nervous but excited! My husband is extremely supportive of my friendship/relationship with M. M is going through a breakup with his GF as he helps her move out...

CONT'd... Over the next month, he mentored her through a couple of books… teaching her arrhythmias to look for, and when she had questions one morning, he invited her to his apartment to answer since she had an errand to run nearby. She was sitting on his small loveseat sofa and looked up a...

I process through things by writing sometimes, and I find myself sometimes easier to analyze when writing in the third person. LOL. This is the story of how I met M, my current emotional secondary relationship, and the beginning of our complicated story. He was the first man I ever kissed after...

Thanks for the welcome, thirteenth! :) I look forward to contributing and learning more.