Terevet

I'm at that stage in life where I'm discovering knew things about myself, and trying to piece it all together. I was happily married for 8-10 years, and there was a sense of identity that came from being a married man; a certainty of my future; a dream of building something together into old age. Then I became unhappy in the marriage, and that's now been for another 8-10 years, and we've been trying to find ways to be together because we very much still love each other.

A few years ago I realized that I love other people, and more recently I have seen that I'm poly, but possibly saturated at 1. My wife is religious and against the idea of polyamory, which is a problem that I haven't been able to reconcile yet. As of now, I'm not pursuing any other relationships, but it's difficult to know what to do with the ideological difference. Could I be happy in a monogamous relationship—I actually think it might be possible. I should note that she is not explicitly pressuring me to be mono, just that her beliefs mean she is not able to be with someone who is poly.

...(unfinished)